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Don’t feel what others say you should

Don’t feel what others say you should

The problem with public blogs is that once you share it you can’t unshare it. So that means you start to censor yourself to protect those reading. It’s hard when you want to be brutally honest and reach out to other cancer survivors that you know need that reassurance and feeling of not being alone. You aren’t alone!! What you feel is normal and far too raw to ever put into words for others to understand. Don’t feel bad when others just don’t get it or don’t know how to react to your anxiety, stress, silence, isolation, I could go on and on.

It’s interesting ..doctors don’t say “cured” anymore. Gives a false sense of comfort I guess.
No sign of disease, no detectable disease…what the hell does that do for our state of mind.

Wait another 4 months and do more scans ..

Ok…so that means we will try to enjoy summer and not think about that scan. Oh wait, no we also have to figure out how to fricken eat again. Since chemo andy is struggling to get his calories in. Figuring out the balance of portion and type of food. Oh and also let’s try and maintain that we are surviving and functioning in public while hoping this nightmare ends. Oh and the poor pups, they only feel the pain 24 hrs a day, they are gaining weight and becoming so depressed. My little yoshi is a pain sponge, he is taking it so hard.

Up side we are at home and not in the hospital yet…maybe this weekend we will sleep all day and night and forget for a moment the unspoken and unwanted guest that won’t ever leave.

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