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Why cancer can just suck it

Why cancer can just suck it

I hate cancer. Pure and simple. I hate that it chose us, I hate that it lingers on, I hate that now I have to be aware of cancer events and participate, I hate the knew vocabulary I’ve learned from being a caregiver, I hate hospitals, I hate being around sick people, i hate drugs, I hate going to a hospital and being reminded of what others are going thru, i just hate cancer.

I think I’ve earned the right to be blunt. Others with cancer have earned the right to be pissed. If you know what it’s like to have each of your days be a reminder of what was lost and gained than you have all the right in the world to be angry or glad or grateful.

There are things in our life right now, moments and experiences, that may never have happened if andy didn’t get the cancer. Would I like to erase all of that just to have a cancer free life? Yes!! Yes times a thousand I would go back to living a life worrying about other things, and not living this one where its never far from my mind of what cancer is next. Is there a day ahead where we have to do treatments again? To be on edge about diagnosis and quality of life?
Andy’s cancer is just a small blip on the war against cancer, if it hadn’t happened I wonder what lives wouldn’t have been touched by his journey. If we weren’t at the support groups sharing our story would it have mattered.

But you can’t ever turn back time…live each day and find those happy times…worry less of what you can’t prevent.

It seems that medicine has partial cures, partial answers, and no firm yes’s. If only someone out there can discover a magic potion that annihilates cancer in the blood. Prevents spread…and gives closure to those in remittance. Survivors deserve more! Andy deserves more.

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NotDownOrOutPosted on  3:40 am - Jul 1, 2013

I hope your wish comes true.

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