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Peace or turmoil

Peace or turmoil

The longer I remain in the old world…the stronger the pull to live in it again.

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Often I feel guilty for living at a slower pace and not relying on only my strength…my wits…my choices. How easy it would be to turn back to taking control. I have a list already in my head of what I would do and what I would seek.

The big question is will it be best to do MY will or the invisible friend’s will?

The ‘invisible friend’s’ will is far from easy and sounds the most impractical, imbalanced, unbelievable, and unthinkable path to take. If I lay it out logically it will involve this:

  • Using all of my savings account to sustain myself until the non-profit gets on its feet to support a salary.
  • Living simpler and not buying luxuries…such as a couch or anything that takes up space.
  • Putting myself out there and looking pathetic begging for donations.
  • Nights of frustration not knowing who to beg for money.
  • Humbling myself by accepting help.
  • Public speaking.
  • Travel
  • Solitude
  • Minimal electricity and abundance of options at a supermarket.
  • No nesting and uncertainty overshadowing my thoughts.

If I decide to continue and make it past the next week in Michigan and arrive in Africa I risk the possibility of seeing what most don’t want to see. Already St. Croix opened my eyes to something else in life, what will Africa do?

Is it true that when you are the edge of greatness that is when all around you begins to crumble and that safe patch of grass on the other side looks all that more appealing?

“If you live in this way, you will do less but accomplish far more. Your unhurried pace of living will stand out in this rush crazed age. Some people may deem you lazy, but many more will be blessed by your peacefulness. Walk in the Light and you will reflect the watching world.” – Jesus Calling by Sarah Young

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