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I love Lamp

At our College apartment.

I love Lamp

Last night my lamp fell over and just missed my macbook laptop. It was a heavy lamp, weighted at the base, still haven’t gotten light bulbs for it but it’s been in my bedroom for over a week now. There was no earthquake, there was no wind, it just fell over. Not once has it done that!

Coincidence? That right before it fell over I was grieving Andy and crying over not seeing my husband again? That I was inconsolable over losing my soulmate? Then ‘Thud’ the lamp fell over without hitting my laptop on the floor. I instantly stopped crying and got up to see what fell, since it was dark. Even in death my soulmate tells me to stop crying.

Why do I write about this on my blog that has turned towards Healing and helping others suffering? Not sure…but maybe we all need a smack on the head sometimes to wake us up and see the need around. Countless people are crying in the world. Countless children are waking up to no adult caring that they still exist. Countless mother’s are struggling to feed their kids and Countless others are orphans thrown into the bush out of desperation.

There will always be poor…There will always be need…but there will always be that opportunity to live like today is your last. That life isn’t has stable as we build it up to be with our fail safes we put in place. It can all be gone when a soulmate dies or when your world flips upside down and then what?

Get a lamp thrown at you in the middle of the night? That would get irritating after awhile ha!

Perhaps its something else…that small voice inside that says get up and look at how your day can change if you consider everything is a blessing, even that running tap water that’s safe to drink, or that hot shower you enjoyed this morning, or even yet the bug free floor your barefoot is touching.

Healing Eyes is $1545 away from it’s goal of fully funded for tutoring orphans in Kenya. Yesterday I put the remainder of the amount owed to Commit Ministries in the mail and most of it was my savings account. I would gladly do it again if it meant living with those that need compassion and empathy in their time of need. If my battle with grief can connect with someone thousands of miles away in order to bring Flavor into the world…to be the salt of the earth to those who may not even know there is hope.

Than Screw it..you only live once and its way shorter than we think!

I’ve been glazing over the reality of my situation…most of what I have done over the last year has been from my savings account that Andy left me. Each day I watch it shrink but then I remember Billah and countless others that makes each penny that vanishes worth it. We aren’t supposed to boast of what we do…right….but this blog is about transparency and I need HELP from each of you to keep serving those that I know we all care about but don’t have the freedom to leave their jobs and families to do. I am an imperfect widow, a sinner like everyone else…but I have been blessed with no physical commitments to one place through an undesirable loss.. but help me turn that death of an old life into ‘dying daily’ for someone else…send me where others can’t go!

I will put my little Donate button here for Convenience and Impulse button pushing. But I understand if your skeptical of my motives or perhaps if I am a real person on the internet…or perhaps money is tight. I’ll give an alternative…Consider Praying for funding and an abundance of support, even if you may not believe in God or all this mumbo jumbo (hell I used to think it was a waste of time when everything just kept going wrong)…But just for one second consider the idea that we are all connected and loved by an invisible friend that truly wants us to Prosper and not be Harmed, that love is real, and that for some reason that empty feeling each day is an opportunity to hear that still small voice say, “You are Not Alone”..


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