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When life isn’t as we want but as He wants.

When life isn’t as we want but as He wants.

“I am a stranger in a foreign land and quite worn from it. My time here feels like an eternity indeed! I long for home even though my home is gone. Where do I belong, Oh God, where do I call home? I feel lost in a sea of people, in both lands I am not at ease. Torn from my life, in grief I now live, longing for the day long passed.

When my husband held me at night and morning. But gone is he and I remain to wander the earth in mourning – but for how long will I roam? Is there hope for me? Can I ever smile again and feel safe?

My soul feels like dust and my bones are weak, if only you would save me from my grief and restore my splendor to what it was and more. Let my teachings not be in vain and don’t leave me in the shadows of death. A life bearing fruit again, where my education is used and I can prosper in my works.

I will praise you in the evening and praise you in the morning and wait in hopeful expectation for the plan you are artfully displaying before my tearful eyes. Let me see your beauty and not become bitter or angry at my circumstances but see beyond them knowing you are at work to rescue me.”

 – A widow cries for the past, journal entry from June 6, 2015 while serving in Kenya Africa (Sarah a missionary).

Psalm 116

I love the Lord, for he heard my voice;
    he heard my cry for mercy.
Because he turned his ear to me,
    I will call on him as long as I live.

The cords of death entangled me,
    the anguish of the grave came over me;
    I was overcome by distress and sorrow.
Then I called on the name of the Lord:
    Lord, save me!”

The Lord is gracious and righteous;
    our God is full of compassion.
The Lord protects the unwary;
    when I was brought low, he saved me.

Return to your rest, my soul,
    for the Lord has been good to you.

For you, Lord, have delivered me from death,
    my eyes from tears,
    my feet from stumbling,
that I may walk before the Lord
    in the land of the living.

10 I trusted in the Lord when I said,
    “I am greatly afflicted”;
11 in my alarm I said,
    “Everyone is a liar.”

12 What shall I return to the Lord
    for all his goodness to me?

13 I will lift up the cup of salvation
    and call on the name of the Lord.
14 I will fulfill my vows to the Lord
    in the presence of all his people.

15 Precious in the sight of the Lord
    is the death of his faithful servants.
16 Truly I am your servant, Lord;
    I serve you just as my mother did;
    you have freed me from my chains.

17 I will sacrifice a thank offering to you
    and call on the name of the Lord.
18 I will fulfill my vows to the Lord
    in the presence of all his people,
19 in the courts of the house of the Lord
    in your midst, Jerusalem.

Praise the Lord.

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