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His mother poisoned his father and than left him and his brother in 2012. He really likes reading the bible.
He told me his favorite subject in school is Science. Although I doubt it, he told me he likes the color red, but that was after several kids before him told me the same answer.

What I remember about him was one afternoon I was sitting with a group of kids reading the bible and when I stopped to pause (because my stomach was ill) and picked up reading again he corrected me on where I left off in reading. He had been leaning over my shoulder the entire time following my reading of a Psalm. The font was very small but he was so intent with what I was reading he picked up on every word I spoke!

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It’s Easy to move a mountain

New look for Healing Eyes and even better direction for the long term goals we hold dear. Where do we stand now?

We stand on the edge of the abyss and now its time to JUMP or walk away. Put all the talk of ‘doing’ something to reality. But HOW?

EASY!

Help purchase 2 acres of land in Eastern Uganda for a village to then build a primary school on. No problem! The way I see it is if God didn’t want us to help this small village he wouldn’t have led me right to there doorstep back in June (Read more…)

So now after returning from the October trip we have more insight as to what we can come alongside the village with. It’s more than building a school, it’s building an ongoing relationship with a community of orphans and widows. Does it scare me?! Yup!

How can you help? I’m glad you asked:)

It’s as easy as Click..Pray…Wait

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A corrupt system

As we grow our needs grow which is why now is the time to Ask for Help. The year is ending and many are turning there minds to Christmas and giving. If I could ask for one thing it would be to have another year to able to go where God says and Do what he says, which means Sarah needs Support. This has weighed heavy on my mind for sometime and I am reminded by others that Sarah needs help to. But each time I see the kids in Africa I think I can squeeze one more kid out of government school into a private school where they may have a chance to get out of poverty. The government ‘free’ schools are 100+ to 1 teacher and they say they are free but on my last visit I learned kids go hungry. Why? The fee for breakfast and lunch may be paid by a parent but since the majority of parents pay nothing then there is never enough porridge and beans purchased for the kids to eat that do pay. It is a system corrupt and broken.

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At another area in Uganda we hope to help build a school for orphans, impoverished, and disabled children. The Building Goal page shows our progress towards making that dream come true.

My biggest announcement is I am moving To Africa March 1, 2016 for 3-4 months to start. I have a place to lay my head and shelter. It is my hope to work with the people there and learn daily problems and successes as we work towards our building goal. I might even teach some english.

This can’t become possible without Partners in prayer and financially. If you have time to look at the Donate page and want to join our team in some way, please consider coming alongside us by helping me find each kid who needs compassion.

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Fundraising Goal a bit more God size

My post from yesterday launching the new Goal for Fundraising generated a blessing of a comment. As a result I am fixing my typo of $5,000 and upping it to the $45,000 I knew was needed for Phase 1 of Building a school.

I’m not sure if this is from me or from the Lord, but I feel like you should ask for more..this sounds strange sorry! But girl, some verse came to mind, Enlarge your Tents, strengthen your chords, He is doing a NEW thing! I think even bigger and greater than you can see right now. You’re gonna need more money girl. But be JOYFUL in this! Not fearful or overwhelmed.

After Andy died I flipped my bible open to Isaiah 54 which talked about a barren woman being blessed with children. This spurred hope in me and has continued to this day. Now a person I’ve met only once comments on my blog about ‘Enlarging my tent, strengthening my cords’, straight from that same verse.

So Bring it on! Let’s see what a mustard seed of faith can do and move a mountain. I bet before December 11 when I fly back to Uganda God can get at least the $5,000 raised.

Healing Eyes clear Goal:

  • 1 building with 4 classrooms
  • Toilets (4 latrines)
  • 1 Borehole
  • 2 acres of land


Healing Eyes, Inc. is a 501 (c) (3) non-profit organization based in Western Michigan.

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Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail them to 4160 Blue Heron Dr SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. 

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Adopting full circle .. a memoir of the past 2 years

Can traveling the world over bring back a loved one? Nope
Can helping others bring back a loved one? Nope
Can remembering what life was like and allowing a small smile sneak through bring back a loved one? Yup

December 15, 2015 will be the big 2 year mark for the passing of Andrew Stacilauskas and he is never far from my thoughts. This blog/website has morphed into Healing Eyes and it all started back when we were trying to adopt a domestic infant baby because all efforts to create a homemade one kept failing. I have left behind that story of pain to move on to a story of life and what a journey it has been. Back when Andy and I were trying to have a child I remember that amazing day when we were successful and I screamed out, “Andy, I’m pregnant”! Then I saw the ultrasound and heard the heartbeat. Andy never got to hear it but he was so happy to hear about it when I said it was so real. All the thousands of dollars had paid off. Then it all fell apart one night when I had a terrible nightmare of losing the child, I woke up scared and Andy tried to calm me. That very day we lost the baby. Andy stayed home from work and comforted me like he always did. That loss changed us.

Why do I mention this years later?

Perhaps loss in all its forms has a way of changing us and creating a new improved version of ourselves. When all is taken away you see through different eyes and the unsurmountable seems that much possible because you have nothing left to lose. I think in the bible it references losing your self to find yourself, the real person God knew all along that you could be.

Missing a husband really stinks and shopping for groceries alone really stinks. So many things about being a widow really stink. But Andy I finally am a mother…just not quite how we envisioned it to happen. So all those years ago when we started this blog/website to raise funds to adopt a child has come full circle because today I am again asking for strangers to help me ‘adopt in spirit’ hundreds of children.

I am sorry if it seems I am always asking for money but the more kids God brings me keeps raising the need and I don’t want to die knowing I could have asked one more time to recapture my dream.

The total goal of $45,000 is to purchase land and build the first school building in Eastern Uganda for a school of orphans, disabled, and impoverished children in a village surrounded by Widows. First phase is buying the land before the end of the year!

Healing Eyes, Inc. is a 501 (c) (3) non-profit organization based in Western Michigan. If you would like to partner with Healing Eyes on a one time or monthly basis, please make your checks payable to Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail them to 4160 Blue Heron Dr SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. 

Thank you. If you don’t have a PayPal Account Don’t Worry it’s not required  look to the bottom left side after clicking the Donate button, where it says “Don’t have a PayPal Account”.

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Snapshots of a journey

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A widow suddenly not so barren anymore

What does one barren widow do with 200 newly adopted children in a remote village in Africa?

NO IDEA!

Does anyone out there have any ideas?

I have fallen in love with 2 special girls who caught my attention when I first arrived at the distant school in Eastern Uganda. There names are Mercy and Sarah. It was when I was taking a few kids aside to interview them one on one when I made the discovery that the 2 girls I saw my first day there were total orphans. For some reason God put them in my sights before I even knew why I was supposed to notice them.

It’s my hope that by sharing stories of children who touched my heart that more people out there will reach out to me wanting to help through prayer and/or monthly support.

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Mercy: age 7

Her father is unknown and her mother abandoned her. She now is under the care of one of the teacher’s at the school who also lives alone (I can’t go into detail as to her story but she has an amazing heart and one child of her own).

Sarah : age 9

Her father passed away and the mother abandoned her. She also lives with the same loving teacher.

Both of these girls are shy and reserved, as many of the children are at this struggling school in the bush. It’s hard to know what life is like for them or what pain they have gone through but in there eyes is a shimmer of hope that even through loss we all can succeed.

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What do we do when the Pain isn’t visible..

Welcome back to America.

It’s never easy coming back because I know there will be no Andy to greet me at the airport each time I return. It’s never easy because I was in an intense environment on the go constantly but in Michigan I am forced to wait. No matter where I am in the world it seems returning is always difficult. BUT I have some real yellow eggs to eat for breakfast and hot water again. (the eggs in africa are white because the yolks never are yellow from lack of protein)
This trip was I think the most productive yet. We found the people at the school very welcoming and there was no culture of begging. It’s hard to find that in Africa as a lot of the time the presence of mazungoos has a negative effect of people begging for things. For this village we were the first white people to visit and I still find it hard to believe but that’s what they said and there actions backed it up. Now the difficult part is to keep a relationship going and not cause a ‘begging’ relationship. We took extra precautions to not hand out things or come in to try and fix things. Often its easier to just fix a building or hand out freebies to ease the immediate suffering. We made it clear that Healing Eyes wants to partner with them and we even shared the concerns we have seen in other areas so that they can understand us better.
We did investigate land and cost of building a school for them. We also expressed concern about the lack funds for the school currently and how we want to go back to America to try and help. We had a final meeting before we left to discuss whose doing what and it really felt like a partnership between cultures.
I agreed to go back to America and..
• share the stories of the orphans and widows
• to raise support to continue visiting them and helping the kids that are brought to the school
• begin fundraising for 1 school building/toilet/borehole
• and the most important one was to pray for them
They agreed to pull the community together to pray for us and find volunteers willing to farm the land in order to raise some money on there side. It was a hard sell to get them to see the hope of raising money in there village. Understandable since the school is barely surviving and no one has money. With some creative thought we landed on what if the land we want to buy can be purchased and then a crop harvested off of it to give to the building fund which involves the community. It’s a start at least.
I don’t know what God has up his sleeve for Healing Eyes and all the orphans and widows but it must be pretty big. Based on what I saw it has to be huge because I am overwhelmed by the sheer need I witnessed while there. Medical needs, educational, and outright need for compassion! Did you know that mothers will purposely distance themselves from there children as part of the cultural norm? No warm hugs and fuzzy feelings between mother and child. To hug is so strange there. It’s a way to prevent pain I guess when so many children die and adults die young.
Please continue praying for myself and Healing Eyes as a non profit. There is a huge step coming our way and it’s beyond my abilities to accomplish. If we could all gather our efforts we could make a huge impact in a tiny village where kids like Rose who burned her arm while making porridge can know she’s not alone. Instead of hiding in a sea of kids playing while she cried because no one even noticed she was in pain. That one girl brings tears to my eyes because no one even noticed she was hurting and it was physically visible on her arm. What do people do when the pain isn’t visible? How can they get the compassion needed to know there is a God and that humanity isn’t dead?
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Widows in need feel the same as me.

Tears fall from my heart today and I am overwhelmed by grief and loss. Our society teaches us to hide the pain and as a result those in need hide and are helpless for attention. When we expose ourselves to being vulnerable we are at our lowest yet highest point of help. While in the village I met with widows…we put out a word of mouth call for all widows to come hear from a Mazungoo (white foreigner). I expected 15 ladies but instead 70 came and 2 men. As I sat in the wooden chair in the grassy field near a mud hut I thought, ‘Seriously?’

I talked for 2.5 hours straight! With 2 translators by my side I slowly spoke words foreign to me, words I still have no idea how I came up with. God knew what to say that day and he knew how to pull those embarrassing tears right out of me for all to see. Somehow I tied those tears into the speech about not being ashamed and that tears release the pain of loss. At some points they all clapped after I said something that touched their hearts, so amazing to see words in action after waiting so long for God to use me like I thought he would. It felt so like a sermon in the woods that day and living out the abundant life promised to us. If only it was possible to be abundant without fear and doubt threatening the foundation of it all.

I shall remember that day forever.

Can we make a change with faith?

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What can I do?

A picture can share much more than words and as I am still jet lagged from travel it might be all I can share right now. My mind is scrambled and my body is depleted. What is left of me is a small shell of who I was and God knows what’s to come of it all. I’ve seen a lot over the past 4 weeks and I have had my heart ripped out, blown up, trampled, lifted, squeezed, and overwhelmed during it all.

What can I do?

I am not in control first of all and second God only knows what he’s going to do with all of this new information collected while in Africa.

The number one need is LOVE and Compassion to about 200 children and what appears to be 100 widows in the village. I went, I saw, and now I want to share with everyone what God is anxious to lay on all your hearts.

Stay tuned for more…and pray for Healing Eyes

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