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Believe with caution

As I consider where I am now in life and ponder … What the crap happened … I think hmm it’s kinda my fault.

Believe That you will Receive it…and it will be yours! Did I do that? Did I actually back myself into the corner and ‘believe’ this all into existence? Crap! Why doesn’t it put a warning label in the bible versus about the power of believing and to use it with extreme caution. Now What Do I do? Follow Through and do what I believe and keep going crazy?

Now I would swear at this point..several times I wanted to add a few colorful words but than I thought, Crap, I can’t do that anymore, especially when quoting bible verses. Crap Crap Crappity Crap Crap.

Getting closer to my goal of $5,000 by May. Just got a $100 donation that puts me at….$3,655!

No I am not a typical ‘missionary’ nor do I understand why me…but excited to head to Africa again to investigate more what I believe in.


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Donate Button with Credit CardsHealing Eyes is a 501c(3) Non-Profit Organization based in Western Michigan. If you would like to partner with us on a one time or monthly basis, please make your checks payable to Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail to 4160 Blue Heron DR SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. All donations are tax deductible and a statement will be mailed to you for your records. Thank you.

If you don’t have a PayPal Account Don’t Worry it’s not required  look to the bottom left side after clicking the Donate button, where it says “Don’t have a PayPal Account”.

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Ever think of how YOU can partner with a someone crazy enough to move to Africa?

Donate Button with Credit CardsHealing Eyes is a 501c(3) Non-Profit Organization based in Western Michigan. If you would like to partner with us on a one time or monthly basis, please make your checks payable to Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail to 4160 Blue Heron DR SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. All donations are tax deductible and a statement will be mailed to you for your records. Thank you.

If you don’t have a PayPal Account Don’t Worry it’s not required  look to the bottom left side after clicking the Donate button, where it says “Don’t have a PayPal Account”.

Fundraising Goal

Mission trip to Africa May 19 – June 30 is more than tutoring kids in a village, its connecting and building relationships with those with the least. Please Help me reach my Goal to 100% fund this trip so that I can continue to reach out to those in need.

There is a strong calling to bring compassion and empathy to the children of Africa. More so than just food and medicine. The importance of human touch and eye contact as a baby is something lost from these children because of the need to grow up fast to survive. The children are taking care of children and those that live are left to live in harsh conditions, sometimes without a parent or caregiver. We can fall into the trap of helping too much and it ends up hurting a culture. What we are called to do is add ‘flavor’ to the world we live in, salt of the earth. If there is one thing I have is we all have a gift to share and my gift is Pain, Empathy, and Compassion. If children grow up without knowing another human being cares and that compassion does exist than the flavor of life will die. Being a Christian is more than Believing, it is following and dying daily for others to know God’s love through our lives.


Healing Eyes, Inc. is a 501 (c) (3) non-profit organization based in Western Michigan. If you would like to partner with Healing Eyes on a one time or monthly basis, please make your checks payable to Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail them to 4160 Blue Heron Dr SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. 

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Are Dreams real or just fragments of a subconscious…

I had a dream and a vision the other night, if you believe in that sort of thing. My late husband was with me and he told me, “he wasn’t in pain and he was ok, that he had our baby with him and she was oh so beautiful”. He went on to say, “Don’t give up Sarah, It is quite beautiful here and someday we will hug again but for now you have live even though I am dead”. “I am ok”.

Then there a bunch of british soldiers storming a castle I think and some gun fire and then I think a monster and then a ton of kids running towards me. No idea what that means! HA!

We also talked a bit about his last days of cancer and how he changed and that I couldn’t handle that Andy…that the disease had taken over his brain, he said, “He understood and he didn’t like how he felt either and that he loved me still and I loved him still.”

So are Dreams Real or just fragments of a subconscious we ignore?

Beats me but I sure didn’t want to wake up after dreams like that where Andy and I were us again. Where he comforts me and tells me to remember just the good memories and to let the cancer memories fade. He encouraged me to remember specific happy memories and then another and another until I peacefully fell asleep. Then he kept at me in my dreams to tell me he was ok. So I believe dreams are more than dreams…

Now then did I get my miracle to keep on track with Africa?

Well I sure can’t say no to Andy urging me on! I really can’t say no to God saying Don’t Give Up either. So I am in a pickle.

I need employment of some kind for the downtimes and that will be ok with me going off to Africa for 6 weeks. Does that even exist?

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Beaten and worn from the day of doubts…but not out. 

Perhaps a miracle did come through today that I can pull from for strength. 

Africa still on for May! As long as God keeps pushing I’ll keep following. Just seems it gets harder the closer I get to following the bread crumbs. 

$3455 raised so far…still a bit to go to fully funded for the 6 weeks serving in Kenya. 

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Too small to go on at this pace…I need a miracle

What’s difficult about having a blog that spells out my plans while also not being sure about my plans 100% is the transparency I try to keep to my followers and supporters.

Bit of a speed bump hit on Africa trip this May. Why? Well I am feeling a sense of need to get a job/career back in Michigan and occupy my days with some actual tangible evidence of my existence. By returning to Michigan I had hoped to work on rebuilding my life even still after losing my husband and to do this its becoming apparently clear I need to work. Preferably I would like to work back at my previous employer since it felt like a family. Now that I have lost that family I feel a part is missing on top of not having Andy anymore.

Healing Eyes is a non-profit business…True! But with no income and no steady work to keep me alive. I am a person who can’t sit still and needs another occupation to create a wholeness. I have Graphic Design Experience, Leadership, Business, Cross-Cultural Teams, Project Management, geeze I started a Non-Profit out of nothing, that has to be some level of accomplishment……..now how do I use that and also go to Africa for 6 weeks and still get a job? Or do I choose?

I want a career again and it feels more important than ever that I have to seek it out…  so…. now what….

This is where I am too small to answer these unknowns and doubts..  This is where God needs to step in and I need a butt-load of prayer! Perhaps that is how God shows his power and my ultimate weakness? Perhaps this is where my mistakes and regrets can either kick me in the butt or prove to be not mistakes…I don’t know..but I do know I need to reclaim a Career and somehow see where the pieces lay.

So I am applying for jobs again…Updated Resume…Job Searching…and I’ll let the universe decide where I fall 🙂

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A blanket made out of pain

At long last the hospital blanket I started during Andy’s hospitalization is complete. Each square signifies visits to the ER and inpatient hospital visits. The blanket lay partially completed while away in St. Croix, safely tucked away in a polka dot pink bag. I hadn’t touched knitting needles in over a year since Andy died…that part of me was over and now I can truly say it is ‘complete’…as complete as I’ll ever feel knowing my soulmate is no longer with me. Perhaps its fitting to leave one side of the border incomplete..a reminder of a life cut short from Cancer.

It is a beautiful story and beautiful blanket to see…each thread and each stitch is yet another woven memory in my story.

What awaits me next is yet to be seen…

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Writing Chapter 2: My First Year of Dating as a Widow

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The Pruning Of The Lord

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Luke 9:13-15 (Are You Ready For Your Miracle)

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Heart-Wrenching Photo of Doctor Crying Goes Viral. Here’s Why – by Pamela Wible MD

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