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I love Lamp

Last night my lamp fell over and just missed my macbook laptop. It was a heavy lamp, weighted at the base, still haven’t gotten light bulbs for it but it’s been in my bedroom for over a week now. There was no earthquake, there was no wind, it just fell over. Not once has it done that!

Coincidence? That right before it fell over I was grieving Andy and crying over not seeing my husband again? That I was inconsolable over losing my soulmate? Then ‘Thud’ the lamp fell over without hitting my laptop on the floor. I instantly stopped crying and got up to see what fell, since it was dark. Even in death my soulmate tells me to stop crying.

Why do I write about this on my blog that has turned towards Healing and helping others suffering? Not sure…but maybe we all need a smack on the head sometimes to wake us up and see the need around. Countless people are crying in the world. Countless children are waking up to no adult caring that they still exist. Countless mother’s are struggling to feed their kids and Countless others are orphans thrown into the bush out of desperation.

There will always be poor…There will always be need…but there will always be that opportunity to live like today is your last. That life isn’t has stable as we build it up to be with our fail safes we put in place. It can all be gone when a soulmate dies or when your world flips upside down and then what?

Get a lamp thrown at you in the middle of the night? That would get irritating after awhile ha!

Perhaps its something else…that small voice inside that says get up and look at how your day can change if you consider everything is a blessing, even that running tap water that’s safe to drink, or that hot shower you enjoyed this morning, or even yet the bug free floor your barefoot is touching.

Healing Eyes is $1545 away from it’s goal of fully funded for tutoring orphans in Kenya. Yesterday I put the remainder of the amount owed to Commit Ministries in the mail and most of it was my savings account. I would gladly do it again if it meant living with those that need compassion and empathy in their time of need. If my battle with grief can connect with someone thousands of miles away in order to bring Flavor into the world…to be the salt of the earth to those who may not even know there is hope.

Than Screw it..you only live once and its way shorter than we think!

I’ve been glazing over the reality of my situation…most of what I have done over the last year has been from my savings account that Andy left me. Each day I watch it shrink but then I remember Billah and countless others that makes each penny that vanishes worth it. We aren’t supposed to boast of what we do…right….but this blog is about transparency and I need HELP from each of you to keep serving those that I know we all care about but don’t have the freedom to leave their jobs and families to do. I am an imperfect widow, a sinner like everyone else…but I have been blessed with no physical commitments to one place through an undesirable loss.. but help me turn that death of an old life into ‘dying daily’ for someone else…send me where others can’t go!

I will put my little Donate button here for Convenience and Impulse button pushing. But I understand if your skeptical of my motives or perhaps if I am a real person on the internet…or perhaps money is tight. I’ll give an alternative…Consider Praying for funding and an abundance of support, even if you may not believe in God or all this mumbo jumbo (hell I used to think it was a waste of time when everything just kept going wrong)…But just for one second consider the idea that we are all connected and loved by an invisible friend that truly wants us to Prosper and not be Harmed, that love is real, and that for some reason that empty feeling each day is an opportunity to hear that still small voice say, “You are Not Alone”..

Donate Button with Credit CardsHealing Eyes is a 501c(3) Non-Profit Organization based in Western Michigan. If you would like to partner with Healing Eyes on a one time or monthly basis, please make your checks payable to Healing Eyes, Inc. and mail them to 4160 Blue Heron DR SE, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512. All donations are tax deductible and a statement will be mailed to you for your records. Thank you.

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And they keep coming in..and the attacks on my spirit grow

It would be great to hear from my readers and perhaps get some prayer warriors going for encouragement to keep going with this Africa Crazy Adventure. Some ask how do I keep doing this? What keeps you going? Why do you do it? Your one crazy strong woman!


I don’t know how I keep doing this..pure faith mixed with insanity…
Perhaps it’s those faces in pain that keeps me going..
I do it because it makes sense..
and no I really am not that strong…

What I do know is I just got some additional support from a friend and I am feeling a bit better after my rough morning of self-doubt and worry. So now drum rolllllllll…..I’m at $3,425! BooYaa!!!

Anyone want to help keep the momentum going and push it to the
$4,000 marker before the end of the day? 🙂

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or send check to
4160 Blue Heron Dr, Apt 302, Kentwood, MI 49512
and I’ll send a tax receipt for your year end filing.
Healing Eyes is a 501c(3) Non-Profit Organization

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Getting closer to fully funded for Mission Trip to Kenya

Please help me reach my goal of $5,000 before I leave for Africa in May. Every little bit can make a difference no matter how small it seems. Only need $1875 to complete the goal, yay! Thank you to those who have helped reach over half of the money raised.

As a 501c(3) Non Profit organization any amount can be a tax deduction for next year’s taxes!

Donate to Healing Eyes, Inc. Ministries online via PayPal with either a one-time donation, or a recurring monthly Donate Button with Credit Cardsdonation by clicking on the “Donate” button to the right!
If you don’t have a PayPal Account Don’t Worry it’s not required look to the bottom left side after clicking the Donate button, where it says “Don’t have a PayPal Account”.

Prayer is also a Big Ways to Support Healing Eyes!

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What a fast response to creative ways to help out…

It happened so fast that I hardly believe it myself but I now have in my hands a Free Laptop given to me out of response to the need I blogged about only 2 hours ago. No sooner had I clicked publish, I got a message saying, “I have a laptop you can have”!


The laptop donated is missing a battery and the power cord is a bit frayed. Do I dare push my luck and put the request out for a laptop battery and power cord now? If anyone wanted to help out these are links to Amazon where they are quite inexpensive. It would be a huge blessing and a complete answer to Prayers for helping me help the orphans in Africa with Computer skills.


My Answer to prayer.. This is Caitlin who offered me an old laptop she didn’t need anymore. yay!

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Creative ways to help with stuff you may not want anymore..

I have a need for CREATIVE ways to help me on my Africa trip this May.

  • Inexpensive Laptop with wifi capabilities, word processing, basic graphic design software. Lightweight and not too shiny that someone would want to take it.
  • Good working printer
  • Sketch books to hand to students for teaching Graphic Design to them
  • Ukulele to have kids sing with, Only $33 on Amazon

All this is before I leave May 19th for Kenya to tutor at the Mugomari School

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I go one way but then go another

Update on mission work in Africa:

As my heart has been pulled to see Billah again at that fateful waterfall in Uganda I decided to reach out to the leader of the team for this trip and see what could be done. It seems God was already at work on this one and I was just a pawn again. So fate might bring me back to Uganda for a weekend excursion while serving in Kenya this May. The details aren’t confirmed yet but it seems I will also be visiting a special needs orphan home in Eastern Uganda as well as one in Umoja Kenya. Both were added because of the little adventure across the border of Kenya and Uganda.

The Umoja Woman it seems is an all female matriarch village founded in 1990 (wikipedia). A sanctuary for homeless survivors of violence against women, and young girls running from forced marriages.

I don’t know what this all means exactly but perhaps this trip to Africa will reveal more of the bunny trail I am hopping down…follow the crumbs and let go of control…

What isn’t apparent in many bible stories of those following God’s direction is the irritating ‘waiting’ game. If patience is something to be learned and earned I must be in the worst part of it. In stories you hear of all the ‘Big’ impact moments and ‘Story defining’ parts, they leave out all the days and months of just waiting and twiddling your thumbs in boredom.

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Believe it or not miracles do exist in 2015!

Believing is a powerful tool! It can’t always create the results we seek but it sure can work when it aligns with God’s plan. I’m giving all the credit to him right now and standing back as he keeps doing the leg work for me. I used to not believe in all of this and think there was no God. How could there be when cancer exists and takes our loved ones. Or when others are blessed with babies and the American dream family. Always I looked at others and saw what I couldn’t have and when Andy died it should have been icing on the cake of disbelief. However, I survived by the shear luck of finally believing again. Crap happens and mistakes are made, the repercussions of those mistakes can be painful and life altering, death can destroy hearts, and pain can cloud everything. All I can say is believing in the impossible is really hard but the blessings that come from changing a way of thinking can be pretty awesome.

Today I got a wonderful surprise in my mailbox….a donation from my Eye Doctor. I mailed out about 25 letters last week looking for partners and support on this Africa Mission trip. Not an easy thing to do, swallowing my pride and reaching out to others and then letting God do the rest.

I doubted yesterday and today I’m back believing that I will be tutoring in Africa this May, working with orphans, and living the life God always wanted for me. A Missionary! Ok that word still sounds weird, let’s call me the Entrepreneurial Missionary instead…sounds more business like.

So I am half way there!!! and still time before this May.

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Unconventional grocery shopping

An unconventional way of grocery shopping occurred tonight. While enjoying dinner with friends and sharing my upcoming Africa plans it ended quite nicely with a pleasant grocery spree. It’s nice to experience life as it was on the island back here in Michigan. Often I relied on others to give me a handout of miscellaneous grocery goods and tonight I got to relive it again. Shopping isn’t really an enjoyable thing for me and my refrigerator is quite the ‘bachelor’ mentality. Now it has a few more items that can get me through the week:)

Thank you God for providing again in an unconventional way! and Thank you for reminding me to still have faith in this path in life and to NOT allow myself to go crazy in the quiet moments of my day while waiting for YOUR plan to unfold.


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The consistency in the Smalls make a difference

This is one of the ways a monthly donation helps with the ‘smalls’. If it wasn’t for steady contributions of one certain lady I wouldn’t be able to keep bringing fun crafts to the kids in St. Croix. Even though I am not on the island and preparing a trip to serve in Africa my heart doesn’t stray far from those girls at the Lighthouse. I can’t want to see the kids again in April and bring them these fun crafts to create together.

It starts with one or two open hearts and lots of Prayer.

Thank you Cindy for helping unfold God’s plan.


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Another car becomes a thorn in my side 

Can’t catch a break on buying cars since my husband passed away. It’s apparently clear what I thought I knew of cars is worthless. 

New car needs new starter and the dealership probably knew it when they sold it too me:(

Sigh…is this all because I decided to live by faith and do missions?  It seems I’m losing more money than I can get to even serve in Africa. 

Utterly discouraged at what I’m to do…I can’t hate the dealership since that’s not christian like … But I also can’t afford another lemon of a car. 


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