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What if Pain brought Joy?

What’s the secret to healing from a loss so great everything else seems impossible?

What’s the secret when a memory sparks a tear?

What’s the secret to abundance?

Giving up and Believing even when others cannot..even when the pain continues…even if the pain brings joy. If you knew following the pain would lead to joy would you do it? Or would it seem illogical to go down a path of pain in order to find joy?

Some of you know pieces of my story … fragments of a past long gone. Yet that past keeps coming back and when it does the full force of that gut wrenching pain resurfaces, it stabs at my heart, it chokes off air, and brings dreams at night that I thought long gone. Perhaps it’s true that a pain so great can never be completely healed but it can be softened. Someone shared a story with me about how losing someone can leave a gaping hole in your heart and it has sharp edges all around it. Over time those edges will soften but that hole will aways remain…..Always be there as a reminder…Always incomplete and yet can turn into something beautiful. A hole that reminds of what WAS and what IS…a hole that can be as deep as the darkest pit but if we learn to control its power it can be a slight bump in the road. That’s the secret of loss…managing the hole left behind. No on else can do it for you and No one else can see the hole.

But those that Believe in faith and a God that forgives and loves even though we are made to see such horrendous things have hope for something more.

Hope that life can be beautiful amidst so much suffering.

In my mind I keep thinking…it only takes 12. It only takes the smalls to create the bigs.

Perhaps Healing Eyes is small but that could be it’s secret to success..

Ask!
Believe It!
Feel It!

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March 17 lifts burdens

I read the Jesus calling book by Sarah young and I have to share from time to time.  It’s easy each day to be over burdened with guilt and pain. But God knows this and can really turn a broken life into something amazing. 

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Come to me for understanding,since I know you far better than you know yourself. I comprehend you in all your complexity; no detail of your life is hidden from Me. I view you through eyes of grace, so don’t be afraid of My intimate awareness. Allow the Light of My healing Presence to shine into the deepest recesses of your being—cleansing, healing, refreshing, and renewing you. Trust Me enough to accept the full forgiveness that I offer you continually. This great gift, which cost Me My Life, is yours for all eternity. Forgiveness is at the very core of My abiding Presence. I will never leave you or forsake you.

When no one else seems to understand you, simply draw closer to Me. Rejoice in the One who understands you completely and loves you perfectly. As I fill you with My Love, you become a reservoir of love, overflowing into the lives of other people.

Lord, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, OLord.
—Psalm 139:1–4

Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us, set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.
—2 Corinthians 1:21–22

No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.
—Joshua 1:5

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I know Who I Am!

I love KIDS!!!! Yes I DO!!!!!

My husband would be flipping out right now and amazed at the transformation. Years of never having kids and trying to have kids hardened our hearts. But Now GOD has done a miracle…and I love kids! Which leads me to Missing the kids I fell in love with.

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That’s why I can’t help but run back to see them:)  No I’m not moving back to St. Croix but I sure am gonna love seeing them in a month and giving each one a huge hug! I wanted to see them before school was out and now since I am going to Africa this May I needed to push the date up.

I’m coming End of April to hug each one and embrace who God made me…how he finally used fire and pain to win be back. How he made me smile and enjoy being vulnerable around kids…feeling stupid and awkward. I don’t have kids of my own and never will but I am finally for the first time in my life COMPLETELY ok with that because more are the children of the desolate woman.

Come May of this year I’ll be with even more kids and living in poverty but at the same time feeling the most Rich I have ever felt. I will see things that will bring me to tears and break me even more for the years ahead in this ministry. I am ready for it! Bring it ON! Bring the impossible my way and show me how to build that home for neglected kids in Africa. Why NOT?! The impossible is way more possible when it’s not my idea. This week I have learned something about myself and it was through another breaking point God used on me, did it make me sad and feel hopeless.. YUP! Did it make me feel like I am not worth it and not good enough for the task? YUP! But who cares because I know that for years upon years I have felt incomplete and alone. But finally I don’t feel alone anymore! It’s finally happening.. I am becoming who I always thought I would be. A MISSIONARY!

Great song…that sums it all up!

I KNOW WHO I AM

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Cold calling for a mission

Exhaustion from doing what God told me to do this morning.. and my body has decided to dislike me because of it. However, I feel more energized about my mission than I was when I first woke up. I had to cold call churches today, and anyone that knows me may know I hate talking on the phone and I also am an introvert. Put those two things together and it just doesn’t feel the best. Yet now it seems as much as I avoided churches in the past and hated going I am actually seeking out Churches! This is so messed up and not me. Why me God? I guess he likes a broken project to work on…and that is me!

So I called in total.. drum rolll….12 Churches!

Wow!

And I talked to some very nice receptionists…who may I add have a very important role at a church. They never know what kind of person will call and what to expect…yet they get to be the FIRST connection to a body of people serving God. I think they need a huge Thank You for humoring a nervous and stuttering random caller today:)

Tomorrow it starts all over again…but maybe I’ll be a little more polished and smart sounding ha!

Stay tuned for when I announce an upcoming gathering to hear about Healing Eyes VisionCast for the future. Sounds cool right?! Well It should…Cuz it is! Looking like first of April…so I hope to see old and new faces there. I will have the best cheese and crackers you can imagine:)

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Birds DO want to do my dirty laundry!

I’m NOT giving up Universe!

I have a simple and humble list of things I want and I Believe it’s all possible!

Picture this…

Crackers and cheeze (yes cheeze and not cheese), some lemonade and maybe Fruit Bowls. OH and some squishy couches for comfort and coziness. Free African Necklaces for the first 5 people through the door (Yes Men you too could have a necklace). Chairs, tables and a projector to share the Vision of the Future.

Sound Impressive right?! OH ya! It’s quite brilliant and highly creative!

Sprinkle in some people curious as to what I’m talking about and add some hearts open to listen to the Universe.

I am not going to wish for birds though…that has happened before. Really! It has! One day a week ago I was joking about my life being like Disney and birds doing my laundry and singing songs in the morning with me. I was sharing with my brother how nice it is to hear birds sing again and in winter! Then what happens?! The next morning, I kid you not, a bird woke me up in my apartment and decided to sing to me. I wasn’t too thrilled by this joke from the Universe but I guess you have to be careful what you Envision…it might come true. I didn’t really envision the part where I was crawling on the floor with a robe over my head screaming for the bird to leave and trying any door to influence it’s decision. Sometimes things don’t always work out as dreamed but I guess the power of suggestion is stronger than previously thought.

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It can just be that ONE!

Some nights are worse than others for everyone put there. Either living in poverty or living in moderation or even luxury. 

Last night was hard…sparks ignited memories long past and grief took hold strongly in the night. My husband is dead … But today the sun rose again and so I must!

It’s very very hard raising support by myself but I keep forgetting it’s not me but God that’s running the show. I will keep being the persistent widow and doors will open. 

It would be great to have another little gathering of people to share what adventure lays ahead in Africa. Looking for a venue and ears to listen. It only takes 12 people to make a gathering right? So let’s find those 12!!!:)

Healing eyes is reaching out to radio stations..church’s..families..and that ONE person wanting to partner with us in the great ambition to bring love and compassion to a world full of hope. There will always be sick and poor…there will always be suffering..and there will always be that ONE. 

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To Help or not to Help?!

When we are all connected by a common goal of sharing the spirit of giving…while also being cautious when sometimes just fixing one thing can cause a dependency. It seems, life even when those with the least are calling out for help, there is a Balancing Act that must be considered. At the same time perhaps helping can show the need the world needs to those that can’t imagine not having Water. Either way you try to look at it and justify to Give or Not To Give I chose to just chuck it all and help pay for the broken Water Pump in a village outside of Kampala.

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All I need is this toothbrush 

I am blessed!

I have God who is showing me my path..holding my hand…

I have a boyfriend that loves me for who I am…and for all my faults. 

I have groceries too cook a REAL meal on my own stove again … Lasagna…tuna casserole…penne Andy and Sarah recipe.

And I have a new shiny toothbrush! That didn’t cost a fortune on an island. 





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Island coincidences or a clear direction for next steps?

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Sitting on my couch (yes I have a couch!) and playing my ukulele…waiting on God…waiting on what’s next…stressing…

The usual sort of morning for me!

Check my email and see a link to short term missions and after looking at job postings for graphic designers and feeling this icky feeling in my stomach about NOT wanting to be a graphic designer anymore. A feeling of hopelessness creeped in and fear of what am I supposed to do NOW that I am in Michigan working on my Non-Profit. So I gave up the job search surfing and flipped to looking at orphanages and trips to Africa…needs out there for tutors and willing hearts to serve. Looked at Southern and Eastern Africa…found one in Kenya. Never really wanted to go to Kenya but it is close to Uganda where little Billah is living by that beautiful waterfall. It read “Tutors Needed in Kenya to Assist Primary and Secondary School–May 19-June 30, 2015”. Ok maybe that’s something I can inquire about…it has Tutor in it and its longer than a couple weeks stay abroad. No sooner do I click ‘more information’ do I get a phone call from California. I almost didn’t pick it up because first of all I don’t like talking on the phone and secondly it was a weird number. But I answered it anyways. It was the guy needing a tutor in Kenya! So that was fricken fast!

Let’s list the coincidences in this phone call for prosperity sake:

  1. He lived on an island before
  2. He wasn’t a ‘missionary’ type person
  3. Same beliefs and values on what it means to follow God.
  4. Understood me when I said it’s about ‘Human Touch’ and ‘Relationships’ in Africa. That the lack of eye contact when young can lead to lack of empathy and also the pure understanding of compassion for life. Children need love pure and simple..they need touch…they need eye contact…and they need to know they are loved by God and some crazy White person (mzungoo) too.
  5. Lastly…the school is pretty close to Uganda where little Billah lives and maybe I could see her again in the mountains.
  6. Oh and…another connection with a Non-Profit in Africa which is what Healing Eyes needs.
  7. Ha one more..I needed to tighten up my business plan for area churches in order to raise money. So perhaps God is filling in the blanks for me.

Pray for direction.. Pray for Peace…and pray that this is the right choice for me and Healing Eyes to go with next. Tutoring in Kenya for 6 weeks with Commit Ministries.

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One child at a time even miles away is possible…

From money raised at the first fundraiser for Healing Eyes I am happy to share we are sponsoring our first child’s education in Uganda. It isn’t much and may seem small but it only takes One to make a difference and start change. So for the next 12 months Healing Eyes will be able to sponsor One child…and who knows maybe the future will bring more needs to our eyes.

Praying for even more abundance and opportunities to open up for Ivan (pictured below) as he starts 5th grade.

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