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Tired..Hot..Stressed…Dirty..Overwhelmed…and…and….utterly…helpless.

BUT 2 days straight without being sick!! YES!!!!!

I wish I was a photo person but sadly I never remember to take photos and when I think of it the circumstance isn’t appropriate to pull out my iphone to snap a photo. So much of what I am trying to do here is not make it an impersonal relationship here where I just photograph all the sick and suffering people in Africa. We all know people in Africa have it rough and kids are starving and people are poor…we get it really. There will always be poor people and rich people. What’s ironic is being a poor american in a country where people think I am rich. Ha! If they only realized who I really was.

Sigh…today I went to tell a girl and her grandmother her medical condition is not looking good and I have little options for them. Educating the girl on being safe and staying away from boys to prevent pregnancy which most likely would cause more pressure on her already enlarged spleen. Teaching the grandmother to look after her girl and to not overwork her on the farm. Telling her uncle to be a good caregiver and counsel the children to tell HIM when they have wounds. You have to think opposite here because a grown up doesn’t really mean a good caregiver for a child that already doesn’t know basic hygiene and medical care (like bandaids and infections).

Lastly my land saga goes on and on and I follow the breadcrumbs God shows me along the way. Slowly he veers me to another land today that is of the same landowner but a better choice. Why can’t God just show you the first option and then make it happen? Instead of going to and fro while being cheated and lied to and then told half information to then end up with the same land owner and a better piece of land. Now I just need the money to appear in 2 weeks in order to buy the said land. $4,000 should cover it and then Healing Eyes has a stronger commitment in the realm of helping orphans and widows. I am not trying to rush into anything I in fact wish for a slower pace because I am out of my league here. At home I have 4 kids and a Grandmother and a Driver I am feeding, I just paid for 2 hair cuts ($2) for 2 of the kids. Back in Michigan I have just little ole me to care for….seems kinda appealing right about now.

Missionaries don’t always like there jobs! They can’t possibly enjoy the constant strain of living in another culture? and the constant begging of money from them while they themselves have to get help from others they know to survive.

My rambling ends here…if you want to know what your support does in Africa? It helps Sarah not go crazy and it helps Sarah sit in a mud hut while showing adults how to clean a basic wound and apply a bandaid to a wounded child. It also helps pay for fuel to pick up an abused girl half naked who I just found out was most likely already raped by some motorbike guys from Kampala who then just dumped her in Tororo after a witchdoctor most likely told the mother to have her daughter raped to cure the mental disease.

Your support and donations shows compassion to all sorts of people that most would walk away from because it’s just too hard to help sometimes. Thank you for helping me show God’s love to the forgotten children.

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Save me from my enemies

“Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter – when you see the naked, to clothe him (her), and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?” “Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard, then you will call , and the Lord will answer.” Isaiah 58:7-9

It’s amazing to see ancient scripture come alive in day to day life. Maybe in my case a bit more extreme day to day life but still its amazing to see words on paper acted out in real life.

Such as the naked girl that was wandering the streets and we stopped to ‘clothe’ her and to give her shelter. Yes the shelter is in a poorly managed mental health ward in a government hospital but she is getting some attention and safety. She now has some medicine, which I am assuming is to treat bi-polar and/or early Parkinson disease. But I only am basing that on googling the drugs because I haven’t seen any real diagnosis because that would be logical. What also is logical is to not have to go to the pharmacy in town myself to buy the medicine to then deliver to the hospital to have a person I am paying to take care of my patient. But what do I know?

I clothed a naked girl and I am feeding the poor. So then why is the light not breaking like the dawn yet? And where is this healing the bible talks of? So I am calling Lord for your answer now and await patiently for you to intercede on my behalf as the enemies encircle my every movement and plot to take me down.

Yes I have some evil people lurking in the darkness that are plotting evil lies against me in order to try and thwart this entire project for orphans. Their first attack is to counter my first step towards buying land. They are doing there best to stop me and I shed some tears today BUT I am not giving up and I really do think some good will come out of all this and some pretty amazing land will be produced. I am asking God for you to be my ‘rear guard’ and answer ‘my call’. I’m sure you will…could it be tomorrow…please?

In the meantime perhaps some encouragement and a break in the darkness would be also appreciated.

Everything isn’t all gloom and doom here, I have been taking care of many children with their wounds and teaching them some basic first aid by each day changing there bandages and applying iodine and some ointment to seal the wounds. As much as I dread hospitals and waiting and waiting and waiting I do kind of like going to my kids straw huts and pulling up a stool and taking out my basket of bandages to make them smile and so some modern magic on there wounds. I even have a nurse at a clinic that gave me some freebies and hopefully can get some deworming tablets for me. I am by NO means setting up a clinic but if I have a kid who needs me I just can’t say no. The bible really says you should look after orphans and widows even if everyone around them is plotting to stop me. Which I still do not understand because me helping can help them and yet they still don’t get it in this village. So I also ask you God to please introduce some logic here too.

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You are tomorrow

In an effort to keep everyone informed of my needs for Healing Eyes and the 200+ children in the community of Manafwa District an unexpected thing has happened. I have been praying for a few days now about land and if it was to be or not and if I should trust a man named Kemelsh or not and also why Kemlesh doesn’t return my phone calls about land I thought he found.

Well today while sitting at the clinic with a child getting his wound cut out and cleaned I got a call that someone has died. This someone was the mother of a family attached to another piece of land I was considering. I have decided to move away from the man named Kemlesh and now see about pursuing this new land opportunity brought on by a death. I know crazy and sad but is it a nudge to take another step forward in committing to Africa? eek scary!

But this week might be pivotal on Healing Eyes Future and the future of so many children that aren’t even taught basic skills like hygiene and not stealing and lying from someone. Children that see there parents and adults around them lie and cheat to each other to benefit themselves instead of the children. All because the adults learned it from another adult as they grew up…generation after generation which now leads to today.

I need your help to break the cycle of wickedness and cheating happening in these five villages where one Pastor has a heart for orphans and disabled amidst such evil. Since being here I have been cheated out of a laptop and lied to my face by one village. I have confronted the village on this in a sermon one sunday. I don’t know what will happen but I did my part.

Charles my new deaf boy who I need support to place him a nearby school for the deaf in June. If you have a heart for the deaf please visit our Donate page.

I need your help to help each of these kids that are breaking my heart with each wound I find neglected. Even the widows are stolen from when there houses are destroyed. The grownups are nearly beyond our help but the children they might have a chance if somehow we can step in and teach christian morals, the love of Christ by our actions, primary education, and health risks to them. Tell them don’t play in the mud and diseased water filled with parasites. Teach them to find an adult when they cut themselves the first day to get a Tetanus shot before its too late. To teach the young ones HIV is not sycle cell disease and that HIV is not a death sentence. Teach the girls they are not sex objects to be sold into a child marriage to an older man. Teach them that even after trauma they can have a chance to be something. Teach the men to not choose alcohol as a way to die to save the widow from disgrace of HIV. SOOOO many opportunities to make your hard work in America count for more in eternity than in these FLEETING moments on earth.

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Join me in each tear I shed for a child i have to say, “i can’t help you because it’s too late but I can show you compassion and love”. To feel the gut wrenching pain of a 10 year old girl while restraining them for their wound to be disinfected and cut into with no anesthesia because the medical attention here is lacking but maybe some day there can be a better option in a tiny little village on the border of Uganda and Kenya founded by compassion and the salt of the earth – Christians like you!

 

Currently I am short $4,000 to purchase land. Please help reach each of the kids I find and even the mentally delirious naked girl walking through town while everyone just turns a blind eye because they grew up themselves surrounded by suffering and depravity with no one to teach them of another way.

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Awake in bed with anxiety

Been awake since 3:30am from a stupid cold. Of all things! From staph infections in my ears to bacteria/parasite in my stomach and now beaten by a stupid cold!

I’m laying awake with worry after worry about money and how in the world i’ll keep this non profit going when I am in Michigan. How will I pay for my driver to stay in my house and keep working with the pastor here. How will I feed him? How will I keep mending the wounded children I keep finding. What if I am not here and another child gets an infection and then loses there leg from that infection because no adults here will have knowledge to get them a simple bandaid! The cost for public transport is too much to take a child to the hospital and even at the hospital if your not aggressive in demanding treatment people are just turned away, they don’t know they can fight back and demand service. However, when the said Government hospital doesn’t even keep medicine on hand to treat patients how can anyone even survive. I know I can’t fix all these issues and its one child at a time but I still lay awake with worry.

The money seems to just be evaporating in petrol to go to the village and hospitals. My meager food budget is wearing on me and all this stupid living expenses for myself are draining. So many people are relying on me for answers and I have none. The joke is on them because they think I have money! ha! If they only knew it was day by day I am dependent on you my readers and followers at churches and anonymous donors to keep this whole project afloat.

and so I lay awake! with a runny nose and pounding headache after just getting over stomach issues. What’s next? The bubonic plague? At this point I wouldn’t be surprised by some outbreak in a rare disease and I catch it. Never have I been sick so much within 2 months.

Top this all off how will I find help for the missing naked girl I found on the street? The hospital she is in now just sedates her from running away in stead of getting a doctor to see her! I admitted her on a holiday and now still no doctor has seen her!!!! Seriously! How can anyone expect to get medical help here?! Plus I have to try and find someone each day to feed her because nurses don’t do that type of work, instead nurses just wonder around and do nothing. I pray the person who is just there taking care of her aunt will be honest with the money I gave her to buy small bits of food for my patient while I can’t be there.

This is all sounding rather complainy I’m sure so I’ll end on a good note. My widow Agatha has a new roof thanks to you! and a burn on her hand I pray is healing with basic first aid I am trying to do but I have no idea if I am doing it right but it’s better than nothing. I am fearful of getting a disease myself when I treat these wounds but I use gloves so I should be covered…they look at me with awe when I pull out tape and ointment!

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Agate the widow whose roof was blown away had a large wound from a fire a week ago. She wasn't going to have me do it because she needs to farm but I insisted.

Agate the widow whose roof was blown away had a large wound from a fire a week ago. She wasn’t going to have me do it because she needs to farm but I insisted.

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Compassion doesn’t stop at religion

A muslim and a christian both have the heart of compassion and were good Samaritans in Uganda today. First let me tell you how but my day started off with a bit of do-it-yourself first aid in the village.

I brought my handmade first aid kit complete with nearly everything to bandage a wound just in case any child came up to me with a burn or cut. Of course one by one they showed up and I treated about 4 of my kids with burns from a fire to cuts from trees. These wounds left alone would become infected and surely cause serious complications for their future, their is no hygiene or disease education here..

After a morning of bandaging children we headed back into town and that’s when we saw her.

A young girl walking naked on the side of the road as we returned to town at 2pm. We went past and I had this sinking feeling we must turn around. We see crazy people often but she was naked! I tell my driver we have to help. He says no…i almost agree but I say what would Jesus do? We have too try to at least put her clothes on or she will be raped. We turn around and once she sees me she runs. We get in the car and Chase her. We try again and she runs. We then decide too follow on foot. I yell for people to stop her but no one cares. Finally a group of men help and we hop on two motor bikes and Chase her through the town, thru alleys and roads. I yell for a kid too stop her. We almost have her cornered when she finds large rocks and throws them at me. So we chase her again and finally a man who owns a tailoring shop restrains her.
At the police station they send us across the street and then they send us back and then they send us back again after being stern we must help her. Finally we took her to the main hospital and insisted they refer us too a mbale private hospital that can actually treat her and not throw her back on the street.

We arrived safely in mbale with the girl, about a 45 minute drive, and brought her to the psych ward of the hospital. It was dark by now and a crazy lady greeted me, she was actually very nice but at first scared me by grabbing tightly to my arm in the dark. The nurses had to sedate our missing girl and she struggled immensely and even spit at my driver. But my new muslim friend held her down tightly and we were so blessed tonight to have met him and to see such a caring heart in another African here.

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As we sat with the girl until she fell asleep I talked to the man about his religion a little and we found a commonality between us and that was, suffering. We are tested in life by suffering and its our faith in action that shows true humanity.

So now my missing girl is sleeping in mbale and I am back in Tororo and tomorrow I’ll have to go back and feed her food (hospitals here do not provide food) and hopefully the doctor will have an answer to her sickness in the head as well as figure our her identity. She talked a little bit and said she was from Kampala and took a motor bike and walked the rest of the way but not sure if this was delirious talk or truth.

Tomorrow I have to go redress the wounds in the village too… Yikes too much to do!!!

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Being tested with Patience and Endurance

What we do now will affect our eternity. That’s what I at least keep reminding myself as I am bed ridden for another day from an infection in Africa.

We helped 5 kids last week with wounds on there legs and feet and shortly after sending them home I fell ill with an abdominal infection.

I can’t lie I am feeling pretty down in the dumps and wishing to go home but if a little infection stops me NOW what does that say about anything bigger later on?

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What if trials are a way to prepare you for something more and if we don’t endure we will never know what ‘could have been’.

At least that’s my rationale for the current situation of Healing Eyes and myself.

All around there is wickedness and deceit and every step I take forward I am pushed back farther. Last Sunday I confronted the village about some lies and wickedness going around while I preached at their church. Each Sunday I am visiting churches that Pastor John takes me to and we do our dog and pony show. I sing and preach and then he follows up with a summation. Last Sunday I got too choked up while singing Amazing Grace and made a fool of myself by crying in front of everyone. Then I proceeded to talk about Ezekiel 33-35 while my body was fighting the recent infection.

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Monday I went back and did some first aid on the kids I returned home since they are not keeping there newly patched up wounds clean. Now today I am on day 2 of laying in bed, too exhausted from not being able to eat anything of substance and in too much pain from the stomach cramps.

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No words of inspiration on this blog entry today…but perhaps a bit of reality of serving in a third world country where you are most definitely a foreigner!

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Too Many wounded children

What can one person do after opening a huge can of worms in Africa? Beats me but I just did today. I brought back the 2 boys who were staying with me after their treatment was finished for the 3 days. Then I asked the pastor to take me for a walk to see the other villages past the swamp before the rainy season comes. He laughed at first and was shocked because Mazungoos don’t ‘foot’ it (walk), they only ride around in cars. So it was quite a sight today as I walked with Rev John from hut to hut and jumped a small river in the swamp to make it to the visiting village. I decided why not look for wounded children as we go and take them to the clinic as a group. You see there are many children with wounds on there feet and legs from farming (digging). They accidentally hit themselves with the hoe or sharp objects and then never seek medical treatment because of the cost. So now the villages all know Sarah is taking wounded children to be healed. Oops.

WARNING: Some of the photos are a bit graphic.

One girl I found is 8 years old and has been injured since November 2015 from a nail she stepped on. We took her and her brother to the clinic in Tororo. We also found 2 other boys along the way.

One boy (14 yrs) has a wound a month old, another boy (8 years) just sliced his foot on an iron sheet last Friday and the oldest boy of 19 has been injured for 3 years. All have wounds I know where and how to treat.

Sadly the truth here is that the treatment is a bit painful. The girl I had to restrain while they took a razor blade to cut out the bad tissue to open the puss to release the infection. It took me and one other man to hold her down while I tried to insist she be given Novocain for the pain but it turns out that was worse than the cutting because village kids FEAR needles and she fought back. We both cried as I put almost all my weight down on the girl to keep her from moving. All of this while they treated the other boy next to her and so she now sees him screaming from an IV needle, which makes it all worse.

bleedingOutThe 8 year old boy with a sliced foot I met in the morning and his foot was covered in a bandage that was entirely red from blood. When I came back an hour later to take him they had already brought him to the government clinic, which is a very BAD idea. So we rushed to find him but it was too late they had put stitches in without any medicine or cleaning of the wound. They stitched it and then set him away with Tylenol and NO antibiotics. The boy screamed and ran away from me and we tried to put him in the car to take him to the REAL clinic in town. Once at the clinic I tried to hold him tight as they cut the stitches out and cleaned the wound out and let’s just say he is a fighter.

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The 14 year old boy had I think the worst wound and so I sat next to him and held him down as he had his leg disinfected with iodine and then a razor blade used to cut the bad tissue out down to the flesh, about a 2 inch circle of flesh. We both cried and shook as I tried to keep it together for the boy.

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The 19 year old man had the worst infection but I did not see how they handled him because I had reached my limit of suffering.

I couldn’t pay the bill today because I had to use my last shillings to buy food until I get to the ATM again. I actually said to the Africans, I have NO MONEY left for any one else. I am at my end!

Now I have 4 kids again and the 8 year old boy is just screaming to go home and I am screaming to Go home too! No thank you’s and no appreciation for an agonizing afternoon and I still don’t know why me because each clinic visit opens my wound of staying by my husband’s side as he went through treatments and was in so much pain. Here in the village there is no treatment and no one to bring medicine and I fear the next days will bring a gauntlet of more children with wounds I can’t fix. Even Jesus had to run away when too many people came to be healed…There is too much need here and I just want someone to hold me tonight.

If you can help Healing Eyes out tonight with a donation of any amount to help our medical fund it would be a blessing to these children and me because more are coming and I can’t say no 🙁

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Widows home destroyed in the night

After a storm comes the clean up and sadly in my little village in Africa one of the widow’s I know there has been hit hard. Her house was destroyed by the strong winds and heavy rains in Eastern Uganda. The roof blew away first and then a large tree collapsed the smaller room where 15 children and adults were huddled in during the storm. Luckily by the grace of God they moved to the larger house after the roof blew off just in time to escape the tree that fell. If they had not moved they would have certainly died, and faced the same fate of another family who lost a life during the storm.

Agatha is aagatha humble widow who opened her home to us on several occasions and cooked us a traditional African lunch.
I’m estimating $100 for the roof if anyone can help me help a widow in need. I would like to get her some new clothes and supplies that the storm destroyed if possible but need the extra funds to do so. Any amount of support would be a blessing to her and the many children she cares for in the village.

 

 

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A day off from the crowd

After a day of disappointment and anger I turned to my little book of devotions and it says, “God is Someone You Can Rely On”. Even though my enemies are growing and they are plotting behind my back, even though I do not know my enemies from my friends here I can trust in One.

Then I flip to another page it reads, “God is your protector”.

Psalm 63:7

Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.

Today I am going to hide in God’s shadow of his wings and wait for the evil to pass over me. Those who are threatening me will be taken care of and I will wait in the darkness because perhaps what’s on the other side is far more treacherous.

To reaffirm this even more I flipped to Psalm 25 and it reads:

To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul, in you I trust, O my God. Do not let be put to shame, nor let my enemies’ triumph over me. No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame, but they will be put to shame who are treacherous without excuse…

Turn to me and be gracious to me, for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart have multiplied; free me from my anguish…See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they ate me! Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame for I take refuge in you.

I am hiding today and trying to regain some glimmer of hope that I should continue with this journey because right now all I see is darkness and deceit surrounding me. Maybe with each good thing I bring I will be faced with a double dose of evil each time. If so, then I fear I am not strong enough to withstand what may come next. The purpose of starting this charity and life change was all based on compassion and seeing past pain and yet I cannot see how any of that will ever change hearts in the darkness that is covering this village. It will not be by my strength that heals hearts there but I put my hope in my invisible friend who was there with me since my husband died.

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Exhausted and determined to build hope

What I am thankful for is a shower and a mosquito net. Really it’s the basics in life that make the difference here in Africa. For dinner I had 1 hard boiled egg, beef jerky, and 3 bananas. It’s more than some get.

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Not to sound like a broken record but I need prayers for my health. My nose has began running and my headaches won’t stop. After finishing my week of Amoxycillin I am now starting my stash of Cipro to try and combat this ailment. I just pray I don’t get a cold on top of all of this.

Regardless of how my body is doing my heart took a bit of a beating today as I interviewed some new ‘orphans’ admitted to the ‘school’. How the school can take more kids in is beyond my comprehension because they have NO buildings and the teachers aren’t even paid since parents aren’t paying school fees.  Pastor John has a big heart and can’t say no to anyone it seems. But alas I talked to some new kids and heard the same thing over and over, mother died and father is a drunkard. Or another is father died of HIV and mother is widowed and only digs in the garden. My favorite is the witchdoctor poisoned their mother in the garden, some truth behind this and also just some basic lack of medical help.

31 more kids! On top of the 31 I already had who were on the needy list. Healing Eyes will do its best but its a reality when we can’t help all of these kids  because first of all some have parents that can pay and also we need to do more than just pay for school fees. I am tired…my heart is tired..my immune system is fighting as hard as it can against sickness…and today I get more kids. Tomorrow morning I need to get up and make a list of which kids deserve a trip to the hospital for HIV testing and other health ailments and which will have to wait. One child has some diagnosis of a pancreas issue, I told her to bring her medical papers so I can see what the problem is. I’m not a Doctor though!

The rains are coming sadly which means the meager school under 2 trees is going to take a beating from the rain and mud. So in preparation I have begin ordering some wooden benches to get them off of the ground, buying some sheet metal to put a roof on the makeshift classroom of sticks, and lastly we will get the mudding started to construct 3 little classrooms until one day we can have land and REAL buildings. My hope is that this can help during rainy season and provide some relief for the time. Should cost about $250 to pull this miracle off this week. Pray Pray Pray we can work faster than usual here in Africa where snail pace time rules.

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