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Bittersweet return

My heart is torn paper. Ripped to pieces and written with tears. Oh God why do you torment me. Why do I gasp for air. Let it end. Give back light to my eyes. I have returned to the island after a mini vacation and self discovery tour of loss. I spent time with a dear

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Heart strings pulled

I'm on my way to see my dogs after 5 months apart. The second hardest thing to do after Andy died. I fear seeing them will break my heart again. But I miss them...they remind me of Andy and I need that. I need a piece of Andy back. It's a 2 week break before any after schoo

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Realizing my life isn’t mine anymore

As much as I fight for control it seems I am powerless. On that day many months ago when I hit what I thought was bottom and cried for God to take my life it seems he took me seriously. I see glimpses of my life in dreams at night. I walk the day in a fog of reality and mem

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Sick but not beaten

Yesterday I attended an all Black church downtown with my two friends. It was a rememberable time, more so because of the sermon. The music was a bit repetitive but it was loud and full of life which was a nice change. The sermon was about giving up everything if God comman

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Boing Boing..Jump

My day wasn’t supposed to be all kids but it ended up being that way. I am floundering around and each day it seems I never know what will happen. Today I was with the kids at the club all day and we went to the beach for most of it. As usual I was awkward when I first arr

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Earning My Stripes!

Take that leap and go out and live trusting God! Do it! I dare everyone to try it….wow….but don’t expect instant results. It really is a minute by minute commitment to not give up. I’m glad today I stuck it out and went with God’s direction, as much as it confused

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Uno

Uno is the card game of choice for the kids at the club. I was a hit since I had a new deck of cards and would play for hours (I mean hours!). Slowly the kids are realizing I am going to be around for a while and they wander up to me while I am sitting at the picnic table. T

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Ukulele

When I first learned the Ukulele I thought I would never be able to sing while strumming. But now after hours and days of practice I've done it! Little by little I got the hang of it. I wonder if that is what life can be like. Diligence and persistence to learn new things

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A Small Life

The approach to raise $5,000 for 5 months of service on the island wasn't the right approach. Well it felt right at the time, thinking of how will I make it after quitting my reliable paid salary job. Every two weeks I got a check that would let me buy food and pay for lodgi

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Living on Luck

For the first time in years i have no income, I am scared...I won't lie.Andy is gone, my house is gone. If God is real now what? Well I just looked at my PayPal account to see what I have saved up in order to pay my August Rent. What do I see? The exact amount I needed for r

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