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Why do I have a guitar?

The day started without one and now I appear to have one in my possession. I have learned about 3 cords that I think I still remember and my fingers are a bit numb and red from pressing on the wires.  It all began because this morning I was filled with grief. Sometime

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Hop Hop

If God is for us, who can be against us? Rom 8:31. If God gave up his son for us.. gave it all up.. how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? If God could give it all up for us (me) than why is it so ludicrous to think it’s not ok for me to

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A story unfolds

I think God has a funny sense of accomplishing a plan. Let’s take someone who has been used to doing something for all of his or her adult life with a partner and then take that partner away. How does this person survive? That’s where it gets interesting because some peo

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Lost Dreams

For the first time I am realizing I have no dreams left. All the dreams me and Andy had together are now gone.   We dreamt of having a bigger house and a large garage for all our cars. We dreamt of having kids. We dreamt of getting better jobs. We dreamt

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Long day on da island

This evening I had a very sudden burst of grief overwhelm me. It's been at least a week since that's happened. I saw a man that was skin and bones , literally , not exaggerating. It brought back painful images of Andy's body being ravished by starvation. His first started th

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Transparency thru honesty

There was a friend in my life that was very kind to Andy and I. She gave us meals during chemo treatments and offered encouragement to us during our journey thru cancer. I didn’t know her prior to Andy’s diagnosis and treatments. There were many people that offered suppo

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Returning to the island (again)

I am putting my 'island' clothes back on. Off with the business clothes and on with the lightweight colorful clothes. What a contrast between the two. One is to be portrayed as smart, successful, and businessy. The other is to be comfortable, cool, and relaxed. Shouldn't

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Exhale…yup still weak

"To suffer passes; to have suffered never passes.  .. But people who have suffered are the very best equipped to help." "My grace is sufficient in you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Oh what pain I feel in my heart today.. it feels like a knife is being pu

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Peaceful

I was angry when Andy died.I was angry when Hope died.I was angry when Adoption failed.But this morning as I awake on the island at my friend, Beth's condo by the Sea...I hear the waves crashing on the rock wall and the wind blow the palm tree on the window. I smile! I smil

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Working with kids can help mend old wounds.

Andy and I struggled to have kids of our own for several years… dare I say our entire marriage was shadowed by never being able to. I think looking back it might have slowly eroded that child like self in each of us. We had lots of fun together but we desperately wanted to

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