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Speak Louder Please

So I asked God tonight why am I here? What am I supposed to do…? After a painful afternoon of solitude in the very hot room I reside in. Feeling sorry for myself and doubting my decisions. Missing Andy and what I used to have. He answered with Matthew 12:18-21 which tal

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Sweat and tears

So it's 80+ temperatures and instead of laying low and cool I went to help a new friend do 'yard' work. I say 'yard' work because this involved hauling very long palm branches from one side of the estate to another. Those suckers are heavy! What am I doing here? I'm grievi

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One day

After a miserable night before missing Andy and doubting my future. Thinking about all the parts of my life that have gone wrong..such as..losing Andy, failing Andy, and losing all my belongings to God. I woke up groggily and not looking forward to breathing. Dragging

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I’m thinking I think too much

Today we beach hopped since the rain clouds wouldn't leave us alone. Finally we landed again at the free pool (thanks Beth!). Why didn't we just start there? Because that's logical and all logic leaves on this island.As far as progress being made on deciding my length of sta

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I woke up in a sweat last night from a terrible nightmare. Andy was in the hospital and I went to find him but I couldn't, no one knew where he was. So i insisted he was in ICU and that was where I left him. Finally he magically appeared. Sadly he looked awful...his head

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Cost is High

  The juxtaposition of beauty -- Palm trees and roaring waves in contrast to the high cost of living it.Sticker SHOCK today as I went to get a few groceries to get by with... I spent $30 on 9 items, the grapes are what did me over as they cost about $5! The cereal box wa

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It has begun…now what

And opened our eyes to follow the signs. ------- I woke up this morning not wanting to leave. Fighting the decision I made to go 2 months ago. Over the years I have made friends and connections. One of those friendships became a life line to opening my eyes to

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Trust ?! Really?!

Today's reading from the Jesus calling book by Sarah young. Hmm similarities on how I feel before getting on that plane at 9:30am It's been 4 months since Andy passed away on today the 15th of the month. I fly to the unknown on the 15th of april, 4 months since Andy left

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Scar Tissue

So true

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Saying Goodbye

Friday was a great day.. I started it off with volunteering at Degage and saying goodbye to friends. There was one guy in particular I wanted to see before leaving and that was my 'Old Andy', aka 'Toast Master Andy'. I met him on my first day volunteering at Degage Ministri

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