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42 Days

Thats 6 weeks... Since My Best friend died... I've realized that I have failed to share the most life altering stage of Andy's and mine story. The day Andy found peace and comfort with God and his battle with cancer. Let me rewind time back to October. In October the unw

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Picture perfect Love

            I am so glad a couple years ago we Tried to Adopt and got these photos made for our Adoption Profile. They were meant to show how cute and loving we were to a prospective Birth Mother and now they are a gift to me.

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What remains

Only a broken heart remains. Shattered into pieces on the cold snow...ever falling silently to the ground. Casting shadows on what once was a life of two hearts joined together. A sickness burrowed its way uninvited and slowly killed the most precious part. What remains shin

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Indescribable feelings of loss

What does one do when everything is gone and replaced by new memories. I am trapped looking at past memories and remembering the love and adventure Andy and I shared. We spent 13 amazing years together...shared tears and laughter. How can I go on without Andy? How can lif

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What is love when love dies?

 Does love live on even after death? Can a parted soul reach back and touch a life? Again Andy came to me in my dreams saying he was ALIVE and OK. Again I saw his face before cancer ravished it...his skin was full of color and life. I said, "NO Andy, I cremated you!"..."Yo

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Why Me

Time to process Time to think Time to heal and time to Grieve. Everyone goes at a different pace and process.. I have always jumped ahead and rushed going thru life. I have learned its not so bad to step back and breathe for a moment...let God show the way and ma

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Saved from freezing

Sometimes when your eyes are closed you'll be surprised at what can come when you least expect it. A huge winter storm blew in last night and buried the city, the temperature keeps dropping and the wind cuts thru you like ice (literally:). Today I had to get one of my car

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Silence in the end

My soul cries out. My sorrow closes in around my heart. All I see is darkness even though the snow falls thick outside. Inside the fire burns and thirsts for the oxygen it consumes. My body breathes out of reflex but not from desire. With Andy I had laughter and tears mingl

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Revisit

I am sitting in the atrium at saint Mary's lacks cancer center. Trying to see what Emotions it evokes. This very bench where me and Andy sat while hooked up to an iv... little more than a year ago. He smiled thru the pain.. We hugged thru the pain... Now all I hear is fain

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Wake me

Day One of 2014 without Andy. I see his iPod and my iPod touching sides on the computer desk ... and I cry. I eat sticky buns for the first time and I remember how he would run out to the store in the morning to buy them for me.. and I cry. I put the remaining sticky bu

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