Cremation
Now i lay me down to sleep...I pray The Lord my soul to keep.... Now I go to see my andy one last time before his broken body is turned to ash....numbness and sadness follow on my heels. The final steps draw near, I know not what will remain of me, but andy sweet andy will b
Suffering timeless
When life gives you suffering...stop and think. When the world crashes down around you...stop and pray. If none of this soothes than scream into a pillow. Finally light a fire and watch the flames dance and imagine your loved one by your side. Breathe.... Then cry.. To oth
Passing
Long time I knew for updates. It's been a chaotic and miserable last few months. Ups and Downs and now finally an ending that will forever change lives. My Andy lost his battle with Gastric Cancer. It returned 3 times and claimed his precious life. No words can describ
Wake up
I've been quiet as of late. Lots has changed these days and lots has remained the same really. I've never brought spiritual into my blogs before and even now I am hesitant because I don't want this to become a sappy religious blog. Life and death is real! Life is precious !
Freedom thru Pain?
Each day is a reminder of what was taken but also a reminder of what can be given back. I've had a difficult week where I was reminded that I can never have children, those words strike as hard each time they reappear. "You can't have children". No I can't but I can love
Ride for Refuge 2013
HELP ! I need to raise some money.. even if its only $10 :)I am BIKING next weekend for Refugees.. it's a cause I am just starting to get involved with (odd, as I am not big on 'causes).All pennies help !Team Beyond aims to use the funds raised to build a Discipleship Camp &
Into the unknown
Into recovery and beyond people change. I've changed and Andy has changed. The pups have even changed. Change is hard and scarey. I haven't written much lately because I've been traveling for work across the globe. It's been great.. Too great perhaps because I was able to
treading lightly
This rant is for cancer caregivers only.. If you aren't one you better stop reading because you just won't get it...If your a friend you may think I am losing it so it's best you stop reading now:) The problem with online blogs that are shared with ANYONE is you have to f
Jet lag
I am in Malaysia! The other side of the world.. But all I can think about... consumed about is my love back home. I've traveled two days to get here, am exhausted, excited about tomorrow but I wish my Andy was with me. He makes me smile and complete, corny I know. But it's
