Lose to Win
Sometimes you have to lose to win. How does one define losing? Loss of a life..loss of health..loss of a dream..and loss of hope. That's four definitions that come to mind. There could be loss of your mind. Or Loss of materialistic things seems trivial when you lose so much
Ruff day ends well
Day started rough but ended on a happier note. Care package from Andy's sister and drawings from her daughters was a nice surprise. As well as a card from Andy's parents pastor with a gift inside. Thank you!
A guide to the caregiver
Why its hard seeing your husband suffer. A guide to the newly pronounced caregiver wife. 1. Your life will never be what you knew and the one you love will change before your eyes 2. Be prepared to watch in silence as your other self suffers and there is nothing you can do
Cycling Jersey
Just designed an Awesome Cancer Sucks jersey for cycling. Click below to view it.. and order your own Cycling Jersey
Last long day
At the cancer Center getting our last chemotherapy. Well last long day at least. Here's hoping it kills the bad stuff and leaves the healthy Andy behind. Can't wait for April to come when we get more scans to see what's going on inside.
Looking a wee bit ahead
I don't think we are alone when instead of having the luxury of time and feeling like we are invisible. Its time to plan for the "now" and the "what if". So it's time to learn about writing a living will..power of attorney..and all that good stuff people try not to think of
Try less
"Some days it's not worth chewing thru the restraints" My favorite sign read that today. On a day where it does feel pointless to fight the inevitable. Andy started new pain meds the other day. I wonder how many other 33 year olds there are out there with cancer .. And
Our life the comedy
Everyone around me is moving on with there lives. I am now 33 years old, I have 2 dogs and 1 cat and 1 husband. A lovely house, a car for driving to work and 2 cars of my own to play with during the summer. I have many hobbies to pass the time. Those really are great positiv
Involuntary breathe
Finding the will to go on is an elusive thing. It's something you can't really find. It's as if you are trying to find breathe but its just there. Stand out in the winter cold and breathe out and you can see your breathe... You cant find what was always there inside. Looki
