How was your day dear
Day 1 million it seems. What I wish the most for today is for Andy's pain to stop. I want to wake up tomorrow and see him smile at me the way he used to..with pain free eyes. I want the chemo out of his body. I want his body to heal. This won't happen over night, it will tak
Cancer Sucks Jersey came today!
Yesterday Andy was told to stop taking his daily Chemo pills. I guess that's good.. that means Andy will come back to me now. We had a week and a half to go but the side effects were just too painful and the doctor made the decision enough is enough and let Andy not suffe
Lose to Win
Sometimes you have to lose to win. How does one define losing? Loss of a life..loss of health..loss of a dream..and loss of hope. That's four definitions that come to mind. There could be loss of your mind. Or Loss of materialistic things seems trivial when you lose so much
Ruff day ends well
Day started rough but ended on a happier note. Care package from Andy's sister and drawings from her daughters was a nice surprise. As well as a card from Andy's parents pastor with a gift inside. Thank you!
A guide to the caregiver
Why its hard seeing your husband suffer. A guide to the newly pronounced caregiver wife. 1. Your life will never be what you knew and the one you love will change before your eyes 2. Be prepared to watch in silence as your other self suffers and there is nothing you can do
Cycling Jersey
Just designed an Awesome Cancer Sucks jersey for cycling. Click below to view it.. and order your own Cycling Jersey
Last long day
At the cancer Center getting our last chemotherapy. Well last long day at least. Here's hoping it kills the bad stuff and leaves the healthy Andy behind. Can't wait for April to come when we get more scans to see what's going on inside.
Looking a wee bit ahead
I don't think we are alone when instead of having the luxury of time and feeling like we are invisible. Its time to plan for the "now" and the "what if". So it's time to learn about writing a living will..power of attorney..and all that good stuff people try not to think of
Try less
"Some days it's not worth chewing thru the restraints" My favorite sign read that today. On a day where it does feel pointless to fight the inevitable. Andy started new pain meds the other day. I wonder how many other 33 year olds there are out there with cancer .. And
