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Remembering to smile

It's hard to tell which was worse. Being diagnosed or living without a stomach. Outside looking in I can't paint the entire picture but it seems living without a stomach will be the biggest challenge yet for us. Thursday we start the first cycle of chemo. A couple days afte

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Round 2 ‘i think’

What's the story dude! Well yesterday we met with the Oncologist (who i just noticed is pregnant so thats delightful to have to see while going over the misery to come with chemo). I think Karma has a big bullseye on our foreheads and is just throwing everything all at on

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Bang

Two confirmed ways to relieve stress. Bicycling and shooting guns. Shooting guns is by far the most effective way to say, "screw you cancer and stress"! The first loud bang of a semi automatic hand gun being shot off near you sends adrenaline thru your body. Then it's your

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Ride, walk, eat with friends

Made Andy smile Took Andy and pups for a walk.. Went for a bike ride finally and got 20 miles in before lunch time.. Miko had fun with her stick. Had friends come with who cared. Ate hotdogs at papa dogs. So that's 4 of the items on my plan. Now it's time t

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A plan..

Breathe in .... and .... sigh Being around people hurts Its all a cruel game on trying to pretend that I'm ok Ok that it's another year passed by Ok that we can't have children Ok that my true love hurts Ok that I can't make his pain go away Ok that chemo starts soon ok t

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Glimpses of good

Ahheeee finally something happy to report. We just finished a romantic dinner for one in Holland. Andy is a cheap date! We are shooting guns next week Tuesday to release steam (legally). And My heart isn't feeling squeezed like an orange. A little break and glimpse of o

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oh I love Andy

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Mockery

"You mock my pain! Life is pain, anyone who says otherwise is obviously selling something!" William Goldman, the princess bride. Anyone that says pain makes you stronger is grasping for words to lessen your pain. To lessen our pain would be to deprive us of life. To turn a

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Craving dirt

Cravings from b12 deficiency are dirt, detergent, and pounds of ice chips...you said what? I'm busy scratching down notes the doctor is rattling off and she says andy will want to eat soap. No explanation it's just an odd symptom that most patients report. The radiation doc

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Fairy tale

Greater pain than losing a child...True pain is to have the hope of having a child one day taken away...from a tv show, once upon a time. The king poisons Snow White so she never can carry a child. In True fairy tale style she finds a counter potion to cure her.

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