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Wide awake on my bedroom floor…adjusting to sleeping with a stiff back. Night 2 with my homemade nest of blankets. In Africa I had a foam mattress..that sounds nice now. Perspective on appreciating the small things.

I was looking at Amazima’s website today and the story of Katie.
Am I ever going to prosper like that ?
Is this all just too impossible?

I can’t sleep…I’m worrying about little beelah. If she is safe, still going to school, loved…I miss her.
I think I am too easily sucked in by a smile. Which is hilarious as kids annoy me…well Whiney ones ha.
Maybe it was her giggle and shyness. Or maybe it was her gratitude for life even in dire conditions. Compared to life here that is. Actually she had an amazing home…nature and water. My favorite!

Watch over those kids God and pave the way for my return. Let me help them…and let them help me.

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Doubt but never Give In

If you go out on faith…

If you take the steps you are told to…

Will you ever get affirmation of it being the RIGHT thing to do?

YES I think so…well Now I do.

So Good news and Bad news. The good news is I feel like I have some direction again but the bad news it means the St. Croix Chapter is coming to an end sooner than expected. Also means I have a lot of work to do for my Non-Profit to flourish. But I have struggled and prayed on it and after weeks in Africa wondering what is next I think its the right choice. Plus after my unexpected conversation with a lady at an Apartment complex about leasing a place for 6ish months starting in March I am even more sure in my faith. I am taking another Leap and going to return to Michigan for 6 months’ish in order to grieve a bit more locally but more importantly to try and raise funds and make connections for the Non-Profit in order to end up in Africa in a year. Now there are so many details I could drown my mind in…like how and how much and where and how do you buy land and what will I do and who will go along with this and yada yada yada. Phew hurts my head!  But basically I know I am supposed to be in Michigan for 6 months and then after that I am supposed to find out how God is going to pull off the next major miracle…Getting to Africa.

So simply put… Trust a bit more that things are out of your control. I did it by saying ok I’ll find an apartment to come back to and Ok I’ll work on my business and Ok I’ll embarrass myself more by trying to raise funds to do the impossible.

Doubt always but Keep pushing on!!! eek!

Chili Cook off to raise funds – Feb 5th at Gaines Church in Caledonia, MI.
Be there with an empty stomach and an open heart.  

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Came back with a scarf I bought in Soroti for her

Came back with a scarf I bought in Soroti for her

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A familiar pain relived

She lay in the dirt with tears falling. Her body trembled with a broken heart. People passed her by as she knelt on the dirt road …
Moses, her son, died at age 20 today from malaria. He arrived too late…he died too young.
I did all I could think of and put my arm around her, I didn’t know her language but I understood the language of pain.
She cried and wailed out…she shook and muttered incoherent words of despair. Policemen came by and look baffled by the scene and did nothing to help. Other local woman looked as if she should just toughen up. I sat in the dirt with her and cried tears at her side.
It was all I knew to do.
She suddenly shook all over, stiffened and fell on my lap in a contorted shape, yelling wildly. Slowly she Silently calmed down and sobbed.
Time stood still at that moment as her heart broke over and over.

The scene must have looked odd.
Me a white Mazungoo holding a Ugandan woman in front of a hospital on the dirt ground.

Now imagine how awful some people can be…the whole thing was a sham! The woman and her husband were lying and faked the entire scene!

Beware!!! Some people are beyond deceitful…glad I didn’t give them any money.

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Imagine a breathe on fire

How is it my place to question where I am led to go?

How is it my place to doubt?

When all around me I see pain and suffering…can I turn a deaf ear to it’s call?

When the time comes to go and leave behind all that I love can I say No? Or perhaps delay until it makes sense to all?

What if life was more than we imagine? What if life was in a girl standing quietly in the shadows…

Waiting quietly in repose

Waiting quietly in repose

Close your eyes and imagine…breathe in the stagnant air filled with the smell of bodily fluids and fecal decay…the dry dusty air burns your eyes as tears roll down your stained face. Now imagine each day the same … Waiting …. Waiting… For more…for something to break the cycle of pain. Open your eyes…your heart and realize it’s still the same today and that girl is waking up in the shadows with no change.

Do you fear?

Do you wonder what the “least of these” see each day? Unimaginable! But have hope because each of “these” smile more in a day than those with the Most!

Who is that?

Perhaps in suffering comes something more…the gift of love.

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The girl in the golden dress

A little girl dressed in gold snuggled up to me without me knowing. She giggled at her sneakiness.

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A beautiful widow married 34 years shared her story with me. One of the few who spoke English. My new prayer friend who encouraged me to live.

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The kids surrounded me after walking off the bus. Yelling Mazungoo Mazungoo! (White person)

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Children suffering from cancer in Uganda

The children suffering from cancer received clothes donated from the children in st Croix. I’ve never seen kids enjoy clothes so much. The beautiful dresses were a big hit and the dress pants were also with the boys.

The ukulele was a great way to connect with the boys and have them a distraction from feeling sick from the chemo treatments. Made me remember how exhausted Andy was from chemotherapy and I just wish I had learned the ukulele while he was alive.

 

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Filling up fast

Fighting the genera feel of ‘ick’ today. But when I see others taking notice of what I am trying to do with the non-profit it makes me smiles. Raises my spirits a little bit.

Yesterday I picked up my first donation from a mother down in the projects. Awesome lady who just spoke Spanish but we managed. She had a huge box of clothes to donate for the Africa Mission Trip. So now I almost have my entire container full, which makes we worried a bit if I get anymore donations while on the island, since I only have 1 free checked bag. If anyone wants to donate for the Africa trip I can purchase items in Michigan with help from others. Out of Chicago I can check 2 bags for free! Contact me to help. I also still need help financially for the trip if that’s an option for anyone.  and PRAY I don’t get sick during travel this time.

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My packing has begun to downsize a bit in order to spare the other container I used to move down here. Which means I now have to get my belongings into just one container before I leave island for a month. It’s good to not have a lot of ‘stuff’. Which makes Christmas time a bit harder this year because I don’t really want anything physical. What would be great is to see more supporters join in this story, help finding a CPA or bookkeeper for the non-profit, and more prayer for the coming months of unknowns. Donations for the kids on St. Croix would be awesome for when I return in February too. I don’t know how this Africa trip in January will shed light on next steps but I hope it leads me to where I am to go next and how to pull this crazy faith walk off.

Serve others and live simply. Cute Video I took at Lighthouse Missions with one of the Girls.

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Don’t worry..I have your back

After arriving late to the boys and girls club due to my Jeep being indisposed again. Yes my Jeep is my thorn in my side but it is teaching me patience and to roll with calamity. I took her (aka Jeep) to the Bureau of Motor Vehicles today for registration renewal and it was not as awful as an experience as I was prepared for. The inspector was nice and charming, the people inside were cordial and the wait wasn’t terribly long. Now the system of calling your number (which is handwritten on a piece of scrap paper) was a bit illogical but all in all it worked out. I still like to call this place 2.5 world country since it really has a lot of idiosyncrasies to it. All the St Croix readers will understand what I mean:)

Sadly I failed the inspection test:( my reverse lights were not working. So it is at the mechanic for that and also to see why my radiator fluid is slowly disappearing and why there is a greasy residue below it. I hope its not oil.

But I am not going to complain because as my anxiety level was rising because of the Jeep I got a wonderful email today from a supporter who wants to help out with my Jeep Expenses. So YAY! Don’t worry..Be Happy Now! yes I did just quote a caribbean type song…I think I am allowed to though.

Last night I thought about how I could quit this mission. What it would take to return back to Michigan and get a job, settle down and be normal. I really was close to throwing in the bag since the pressure of succeeding is weighing heavy. Having to find a CPA and tax experts, liability insurance, 501c3 status, board of directors, fundraising, it’s all enough to make me think I can’t do it. It’s too much and I am too broken to continue.

But

With a single email from a Michigander I feel like I can keep going and it will be ok. I will not end up in a cardboard box! Timing is everything I guess.

The kids today were ‘behaved’. Yes, behaved! One of the boys said, ‘Oh your here’. One of the girls apologized for calling me Mean because I guess once I arrived the kids were saying ‘Miss Sarah is here and she isn’t coming in to say hello to you.’ and so that one girl said I was mean. But later she apologized because I did come in and say hi to her. These kids are so attentive to my comings and goings.

Three boys needed me today for Social studies and spelling words. Two of them like to cheat off each other and so that was a challenge. As always he called me ‘mommy’. So weird.

Later on we worked on bracelets some more. The boys counted them and we have 213 so far! They are so proud of their work and excited to think they are helping kids in Africa. It seems counting also is a way to keep them from being wild and crazy, allows them to see their accomplishment, and teaches them math. Picture this…2 boys counting bracelets while kids are screaming and running around doing several different things, an adult is screaming out names for pickup, and I am just standing there watching the magical rhythm of this club. I still don’t understand how yelling out kids names and showing anger towards them when they don’t respond is at all a positive experience for them.

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Milestone for Healing Eyes Inc

Well I did it! I clicked the submit button and now I wait…wait…and wait…to hear if I am approved.

My 501c3 application is in the hands of the IRS now and I’ll need as much prayer as I can get that the application gets approved and that it goes smoothly from here on out. It’s all fine and dandy to go off and volunteer to help kids but then there is the paperwork and the taxes and the paperwork eeeeek!

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  • Another quick update. I am now fully stocked with Rubber bands for the kids and we have a wee bit over 100 bracelets made for Africa Mission trip. It’s so great to see everyone gathering around to make this happen. Yay! Rubber bands!
  • The Africa trip is fast approaching and I just extended it by 3 days in order to visit an orphanage in Soroti. Pray the planning and preparation goes smoothly. Getting nervous. If anyone wants to make a last minute donation and get a tax write off please contact me ASAP so I can get you the mailing address. My deadline to pay is by December 13.
  • Mosquitos are quite irritating this time of year and I am hopeful I won’t get the chikungunya virus going around.
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