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In an effort to keep everyone informed of my needs for Healing Eyes and the 200+ children in the community of Manafwa District an unexpected thing has happened. I have been praying for a few days now about land and if it was to be or not and if I should trust a man named Kemelsh or not and also why Kemlesh doesn’t return my phone calls about land I thought he found.

Well today while sitting at the clinic with a child getting his wound cut out and cleaned I got a call that someone has died. This someone was the mother of a family attached to another piece of land I was considering. I have decided to move away from the man named Kemlesh and now see about pursuing this new land opportunity brought on by a death. I know crazy and sad but is it a nudge to take another step forward in committing to Africa? eek scary!

But this week might be pivotal on Healing Eyes Future and the future of so many children that aren’t even taught basic skills like hygiene and not stealing and lying from someone. Children that see there parents and adults around them lie and cheat to each other to benefit themselves instead of the children. All because the adults learned it from another adult as they grew up…generation after generation which now leads to today.

I need your help to break the cycle of wickedness and cheating happening in these five villages where one Pastor has a heart for orphans and disabled amidst such evil. Since being here I have been cheated out of a laptop and lied to my face by one village. I have confronted the village on this in a sermon one sunday. I don’t know what will happen but I did my part.

Charles my new deaf boy who I need support to place him a nearby school for the deaf in June. If you have a heart for the deaf please visit our Donate page.

I need your help to help each of these kids that are breaking my heart with each wound I find neglected. Even the widows are stolen from when there houses are destroyed. The grownups are nearly beyond our help but the children they might have a chance if somehow we can step in and teach christian morals, the love of Christ by our actions, primary education, and health risks to them. Tell them don’t play in the mud and diseased water filled with parasites. Teach them to find an adult when they cut themselves the first day to get a Tetanus shot before its too late. To teach the young ones HIV is not sycle cell disease and that HIV is not a death sentence. Teach the girls they are not sex objects to be sold into a child marriage to an older man. Teach them that even after trauma they can have a chance to be something. Teach the men to not choose alcohol as a way to die to save the widow from disgrace of HIV. SOOOO many opportunities to make your hard work in America count for more in eternity than in these FLEETING moments on earth.

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Join me in each tear I shed for a child i have to say, “i can’t help you because it’s too late but I can show you compassion and love”. To feel the gut wrenching pain of a 10 year old girl while restraining them for their wound to be disinfected and cut into with no anesthesia because the medical attention here is lacking but maybe some day there can be a better option in a tiny little village on the border of Uganda and Kenya founded by compassion and the salt of the earth – Christians like you!

 

Currently I am short $4,000 to purchase land. Please help reach each of the kids I find and even the mentally delirious naked girl walking through town while everyone just turns a blind eye because they grew up themselves surrounded by suffering and depravity with no one to teach them of another way.

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What can I do?

A picture can share much more than words and as I am still jet lagged from travel it might be all I can share right now. My mind is scrambled and my body is depleted. What is left of me is a small shell of who I was and God knows what’s to come of it all. I’ve seen a lot over the past 4 weeks and I have had my heart ripped out, blown up, trampled, lifted, squeezed, and overwhelmed during it all.

What can I do?

I am not in control first of all and second God only knows what he’s going to do with all of this new information collected while in Africa.

The number one need is LOVE and Compassion to about 200 children and what appears to be 100 widows in the village. I went, I saw, and now I want to share with everyone what God is anxious to lay on all your hearts.

Stay tuned for more…and pray for Healing Eyes

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The lie of the ‘phase’ argument

I have often wondered if this time of my life is a ‘phase’ or a ‘season’. Often strangers and friends have said to me that perhaps it’s just a phase I have to go through and then things will go back to how they were. It’s all fine and dandy to have such a spiritual high in life and then return to what is normal. I’m re-reading the Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis and have run across a passage in it that illustrates such a quandary I find myself in repeatedly.

“A direct attack on his faith..persuading him that ‘his religious phase ‘ is just going to die away like all his previous phases? The mere word ‘phase’ will likely do the trick. You keep him well fed on hazy ideas of Progress and Development and the Historical Point of View, I trust, and give him lots of modern biographies to read? The people in them are always emerging from Phases, aren’t they?”

There was one distinct time I remember while in Africa and after I just found the school near the border of Kenya and Uganda. I had just spend about 4 weeks in Kenya and not all of it was a blessing like most think will happen when serving God. Often we never see the blessings that come from our labor but we have faith some good will come out of our strife. My health was poor and my spirits were low but I was hopeful God would still follow through on his promise to show me the widows and orphans he kept speaking of to me. It was an amazing story of how I found the school and if you care to read it again you can follow this link, Coincidences lead to truth.

But it was that very night after being blessed by God that the devil or evil one, however you want to label that unnerving feeling, decided to slither on it and put doubts in my head. He used some other foreigners visiting the area to put the word ‘phase’ into my heart. One lady said to me, ‘maybe it’s all a phase in your life and you can go back to graphic design, but it’s great your doing what your doing’. Just like that the familiar doubt creeped back in and I went to bed crying and with a tight chest full of doubt and fear.

Maybe I am crazy!

Maybe I did go too far in all this hope and faith crap and now I am stuck in the middle of Africa with no one to bail me out. Literally alone in a jungle sleeping in a tent with the realization of how stupid all of this was. Since something like this happened before I tried to repeat words in my head, ‘No it isn’t a phase and that I experienced too many coincidences to not see them as miracles and guidance from God’. I like proof and God did give me proof that day and so I pushed back the evil thoughts of doubt and phases to eventually fall asleep in the pitch-black darkness of the night.

You see it’s right when we learn something new or get closer to affirmation that God exists and that our purpose in life is simple. The evil will creep in and stomp on those hopes the instant we find answers to that small voice in our hearts. In Africa it is a full frontal attack on people because they don’t have all the comforts of modern civilization to lull them into a ‘normal’ life of ease. I never want to return to thinking that ‘religion is all very well up to a point’. Neither do I want to fall into the habit of thinking my religion is better than other religions when life comes down to Love and Compassion! Not taking what is given to us at face value in the bible and questioning it all and reading it and willingly asking God to explain it to me with any method he chooses. If it’s by throwing me in a third world country with only faith than I’ll do it because that is living…that is truly seeing faith in action…and it is about bring ‘flavor’ to the world we live in and not mediocrity. Likewise God can use people in modern life to make a difference in those around them even if its by living vicariously through those God says, ‘Go’, to.

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Can it be as easy as saying Yes

Don’t judge an event by it’s cover and never doubt that when God says DO something that he won’t follow through.

What do you think of when you hear Benefit Concert or orphans in Africa?  Lots of cliche’s I bet and also completely over done publicity on needing to help the starving in Africa. I know it’s real and I also found photos of kids starving and all the hopelessness there too overwhelming to even think I could do something. Well that was 3 years ago back when life seemed simpler.  But life can still be SIMPLE, really!  If we just take a moment to view one child who captures our hearts and then connect with a few more as we open our hearts to more we can see how plausible it is to help the helpless. Orphans are supposed to be cared for and widows should step out and take charge. Through our weakness God can shine through and do all the work.

Case in point..

Tonight I met with some awesome people about the benefit concert. Never met them before and was going on a leap of faith it would turn out beneficial and that it was the right direction for Healing Eyes. I even ordered the post card mailers with there address on it for the venue before meeting them. Leap of Faith here we go.

What happened?

Well I was shown again how small I am in the grand scheme of things and that God already had it covered. I sat back and listened to this group of professionals plan out each part of the event, down to permits and parking and even filling holes in the grass. I just had to share my passion and my story as to why I am doing all of this and sit back and let God do what he had already laid ahead of me. Silly Sarah…worrying about how impossible a concert would be. It’s all taken care of and is definitely a GO!

If you want to see miracles than just come on by Sept 19th from 6-8pm and hear some good music and listen to me share my passion again for what we found in Africa to sink our teeth into as a non-profit. It really is amazing and so not me behind it all.

I’m just a little widow who gave it all up to find my first love again after my life was taken away…finding it amidst one small girl by a waterfall and hundreds of orphans luring me back home.

Go To Whoa a Benefit Concert  to order your ticket and sit front row to a miracle in the making

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Vulnerable to rejection and hopeful for the future

What I dislike about following God and his vague approach to mission work.

First…the Rejection and vulnerability I am now facing

Second…Not knowing what the next step is when he says , ‘Go’

Third…and most irritating… The tightness in my chest that comes from a day of worrying and stressing about how will I pull of an event I have never done before and engage strangers in my endeavor by COLD calling businesses for sponsorship. Seriously God! Really! ME! I am an I-N-T-R-O-V-E-R-T not a social butterfly. Ahhhhhhh.

Anyone want to do missions work or run a non-profit? Think twice, it is not glamorous and its quite difficult. Yea you get to travel and see new things and meet strangers but you are the Minority in a world that is foreign to you. I think at this point I would prefer to be in Africa as a foreigner than fundraise in America. Give me a Boda Boda and a taxi full of people all sweaty and grumpy any day! 🙂

Ok…Sorry God for grumbling but I can’t be alone in this feeling. Other missionaries and non-profit owners have to get to a point where they want to crawl in a dark hole and hide for days to make the voices stop. Positive note I have cute pink nails and have submitted a request to DesignOne to donate to the benefit concert, I didn’t pass out when talking to the manager and I got to submit the request online.

I have 3 people so far of the 20 I need to give $20 each for Billah and William’s schooling. Yay!!! That makes it all worth it! The smile on little Billah’s face when I tell her she can go to school and her mother can worry less. A close friend of mine, a very sarcastic and blunt friend, said ‘Sarah, I can say ONE word to you that will make you keep trying….BILLAH’. She was right and I strongly dislike her for her rightness and using my weak spot to not give up.


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Rafiki Yangu forever and ever

When we first met I saw a leader in the making…a young lady that possessed a strength only born out of suffering. She shouldn’t be pitied or even looked at as a victim. NO! She is someone who at first introduction would make you think…what was her life like that made her have such strong and imposing eyes. As we got closer with each visit I saw her eyes soften and the beautiful woman emerged from within. How can two different personalities connect so easily? Maybe it was that similar attribute of pain buried within that sparked a connection. As we talked more through ‘passing notes’ to each other I learned more about her life and she in turn gave me so many inspiring words. She is still in high school but I could have sworn she was a girl full of years no child should ever have to earn.

“Look at the birds of the air. They sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not more value than they. Believe in God he will help you in ways of difficulties that you are passing through he will make it be lite.”

“If you have desired to follow Jesus NO Turning back anymore… You were chosen to be my friend forever and ever even if it is in difficulties or in every thing that God made for us.”

If I can somehow share stories of hope and love as I journey through life and also maintain a living by going where God sends me than I will. To make friends like my sweet Josephine forever and ever because God put her in that location at that time to catch my eye to encourage me more than I ever encouraged her than so be it. Can’t life be that simple? To hear the birds in the trees and see the children in pain and know I am in that place I should be…just in time to share words with someone in need. A young lady who is living alone on a mountain, far away, going to school each day to someday be a policewoman. She has no family capable to show her the love and attention kids her age crave but what does she do…SHE LIVES!

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When I can’t it must be the right path

When you look at someone crying what do you see?

When you look at someone screaming what do you see?

Why do I do what I do……simple…….because it would be crazy to NOT do what I do. I met with a friend over a smoothie at Starbucks today and she said I am not crazy. That going off to Africa isn’t crazy but actually quite appropriate. If I didn’t do what I do that would be a worser fate than settling for what I have been programmed to think as the right thing to do. Confused?

When I reach the point of … “I can’t” than it must be the right path to take because than it isn’t me doing it anymore but my invisible friend. The hard part comes when you think know one else understands or is with you on this decision. A decision that really is a no brainer because it’s what we are supposed to do. Bring Flavor to the world we live in and be Different…be compassionate…be empathetic…and to just BE.

I am looking to the left of me and I see my mattress sitting on the floor in my bedroom…its an irritant really that it’s on the floor and feels like college all over again. Looking for a platform bed but not wanting to spend the $150 on one if in a year I won’t need one. Looking at my couch that’s only a couple months old and think why did I need that….to feel normal? Everything can be gone again and it doesn’t matter how hard I hold onto it… Kind of like life, we can hold on to it so tightly but still lose it in many ways.By walking past that person in need that was crying silently inside and too afraid to show it. By walking past that child screaming on the inside but too afraid to express it.

What do you See when others cry? You should see you in their pain and let go of the walls that we put up to protect ourselves from connecting with another’s life.

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My tiny little brain

Conversation with another widow about feeling the loss years later. It’s a common theme, a hole left behind after losing a spouse and the pain never truly leaving.

Who knows how long this will all last but at least by serving others it does ease the pain and bring purpose back to life. Selfish? Maybe…

Something must be going right though since I am only $100 away from the $5,000 goal I set a little over a month ago to fully fund the next trip to Africa. This trip will be yet another step towards finding out where I belong. Or perhaps how I can be used through others to help widows and orphans.

Maybe I am looking too big picture with my tiny brain. Yesterday I was put along a path to talk to two ladies about my mission work and following God through faith as far away as Africa. I thought yesterday would be merely a final trip to the beach with the kids from the Lighthouse, some fun in the sun and breaking up fights. Instead I talked to a widow I had crossed paths with numerous times but never conversed with and one of the mother’s joined towards the end. I shared photos and stories of my time in Africa and tried my best to share the burden laid on my heart to help others and follow the bread crumbs God has laid out for me.

So I think I have the tendency to look too far ahead on my path. There is a need to look closer in order to see who is watching and listening for a chance to be heard in this very vast world.

Who is Watching? Who also wants to be heard?


Only $100 to go and I’ll have all the money raised for the Kenyan Mission Trip to tutor orphans and explore a possible partnership with an organization already established there.

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