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Unite the village for the children!

As I type my stomach is cramping in ways I didn’t know it could. I have gotten stomach pains before but this is a bit alarming. But never fear my wonderful driver got me some medicine this morning and I pray it improves. My new friend at the guest house found me ear drops and now i am hopeful the pain will stop.

Another blessing is Teacher sara is on her way no bus right now to come see me for the weekend. Hallelujah a friend!
What else can i be thankful for? um… um…I’m safe in a locked room and the staff are very nice to me. I even have arranged to take the cleaning lady from here to help me twice a week at my apartment (whenever i can even move in that is).
I also took a hot shower so that’s another plus!
Ministry side I met with the parents today at there annual meeting at the school (5 hours sitting in a plastic chair in front of everyone). It was ‘interesting’. I had to set a few things straight with the parents that I wasn’t sponsoring all there children. They had the impression I was since last time I took photos of there kids (another reason why to be cautious of photographing in the village). I was the last of the official guests to do a speech (they are big on speeches here). My stomach was near death by the time i stood under the mango tree and threatening thunderstorm. I held my bible and thought I would read from it about God trusting you with a little before giving you more but I ended up spouting out a bunch of stern words and moving my arms around passionately. I think by now they know I am not here with lots of money and that I am here for there kids and to encourage them to work hard and that they should all pay there child’s school fees and to not expect handouts. Yes, healing eyes is helping with 30 of the orphans/disabled/hiv kids but not all the kids who have parents that can work. It’s hard not to help all of them since they are struggling in poverty but money isn’t always the answer I told them. God will trust them with a little and then if they are faithful God will trust more. Sadly other white people with good intentions have caused Africans in the village to think we mean money and will fix there problems with handouts. It can be easier to just give money to fix an issue without putting long term investment in the people trying to help themselves.
Right about now a short easy fix of throwing money sounds nice as I am already homesick and lonely but I can’t give up now. The culture here won’t change in my lifetime but we have to start somewhere! Small seeds for change.
It did feel a bit like a united village at the end of the meeting. John wanted me to portray that feeling of Unity..to Unite a village to help themselves he said. Felt like a speech before going to war in the Braveheart movie really, my arms in the air yelling for change and courage to persevere during suffering.

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What a little ‘believing’ can do to lift spirits

Can I tell you a story? Of course I can it’s a blog! ūüôā

I am happy..Why? Well I talked to my friend in Uganda again about Billah and found out the money arrived safely at her school and teachers were happy. Billah was happy. And the family was happy. Sooooo I am happy.

It’s small steps really but I’ll take the tiny steps forward over just sitting still and going mad. Now I just need to find the remaining funds to cover the rest of her back school fees and also get little William into school.

No problem!

I have faith and believe it will happen. Somewhere out there someone has $20 just dying to make its way to these 2 kids in Africa and I can’t wait to share with them what an impact they made in a child’s life because of it.

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Pay it Forward this Back to School Season

If I said 15,000 Shillings buys a¬†school uniform¬†and that is only $4.41¬†… 300 shillings buys a broom ($.09) ….

  • Ream of ruled paper – 15,000 ($4.41)
  • Exercise books – 300 ($.09)
  • School bag – 50 ($.01)
  • Plastic blue cup – 50¬†($.01)
  • Uniform – 15,000 ($4.41)
  • Grey Socks – 100 ($.03)
  • Broom – 300¬†($.09)
  • Toilet Paper – 50¬†(.01)
  • Scrubber brush – 50¬†(.01)
  • Small flask – 50¬†(.01)
  • Mosquito net – 100¬†($.03)
  • Pocket money – 20,000 ($5.87)
  • Sweater – 1000 ($.29)

IMG_5167The¬†loose change in your spare drawer can do more than one would think. It’s shocking how far $1 can go to providing comfort to another far away. So as we gear up for Back to School shopping and sales fliers maybe the change left over can make its way to Billah and William hoping to go to school with there shopping list.

I am putting myself out there and asking for 20 people who read this blog or bump into me throughout the month to help fill my shopping cart¬†to Pay it Forward this school season. $20 a person will allow me to pay for supplies and send William to school with his cousin and also ensure Billah doesn’t get kicked out of school for late fees.

and if $20 is too much for you right now than even $10, $5, or $1 can bring a smile to these 2 kids I love dearly.


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Thank you. If you don’t have a PayPal Account Don’t Worry it’s not required¬†¬†look to the bottom left side after clicking the Donate button, where it says “Don’t have a PayPal Account”.

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A gimme gimme mentality

I am sickened by what I see in the future generations here. The damage done by white people coming in and giving freebies to the children over the years has created damaged relationships. Even if the gifts were given with good intentions the consequences of those actions has caused severe harm to the self esteem of future generations. 

How can children grow up to be successful when they see themselves as helpless and poor. Only deserving of handouts. What hurts more is that I am in a way aiding in this continued mentality of relying on white people to fix there situation for the better. 

I am sickened by my own heritage. Embarrassed by those who came before me. 

When the Mazungoo drive in with there good intentions of helping others the locals wave and greet with smiling faces. It’s as if we are celebrities when In truth it is broken and entirely messed up. We get puffed up egos by being welcomed so easily and leave feeling important. They are looking to the wrong source for help. It’s only within that change can happen. Confidence , self esteem, and reliance on there own abilities and talents to succeed. We are interfering with that opportunity by our presence in matters beyond our reach. Locals must see locals creating change and not a van full of Mazungoos coming and going while smiling and waving. 

All that said I still love these kids and see potential if only the Mazungoos would stop giving freebies in the wrong situations. Think hard first about what that handout will do to the future of the kids ability to rely on themselves. 

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Should we ever try to make a child smile

Had a chat with one of my more colorful vocal friends on the island who has opinions on everything. It was challenging and hurtful at times what he had to say. But as always he will talk with no filter and bluntness mixed with judgment. Yet I still accept him for him as I hope others accept me for me. 

I wonder am I harming the kids here by visiting and spending time with them only to leave again. I’ll always come back because I care so deeply for them. But I also have a calling and desire to be in Africa with kids in much worse situations. To bring the love we are called to do to widows and orphans. Is a moment of joy in a child’s life worth the sadness of abandonment? Does all forms of helping hurt? Can’t acts of love and compassion be purposful even in periods of a kids life? Why should we even try if there is a risk of loss….wouldn’t that be a sadder existence if we never touched any lives even in its briefness?

Why should loss in all its forms be perceived as entirely negative. When out of great loss comes great healing if  we choose to let it happen. 

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