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Hello Cancer…Here we go again

Suffering opens doors and answers prayers for expanding our network of people to share Healing Eyes ministry with. In life we are faced with challenges that come unexpectedly and I believe it’s these trials that amplify our weaknesses and allow God to further his agenda…when we let him. As with the founding of Healing Eyes name, looking past the pain in our lives to let the healing begin, we are faced with another challenge that will truly show God’s hand at work. Sarah (I) am facing an impactful new journey that I NEVER saw coming. Over 2 years ago I watched my husband go through cancer and eventually pass away. It was my hope that the awful ‘C’ word would be gone from my life, however, God has a different plan in mind. Cancer is back and this time it’s attacking my body.

Should I be scared? Yes the world tells me I should be. No God says Stop that.

Should I give up and concentrate on myself? Yes the world tells me I should. God says child I have you covered.

Should I question God about allowing this to happen? Sure why can’t I! God wants to hear me complain.

But…the deeper question is what NEW Opportunities is this part of the story going to open up. Its rather exciting to imagine what can happen next. By living day by day I never know what tomorrow brings and as I journey farther down cancer and experience it as the patient this time I know I’ll gain a new perspective on suffering . Just as the man ‘Job’ went through great suffering in his life I embrace the amazement that God thinks I am strong enough to take on this challenge. I mean WOW, God thinks I am actually strong enough to face this challenge and not lose faith and even continue helping my orphans and widows in Africa. When it seems to be too much for one person I know I am on the right track.

So I say, Bring it on Devil, Bring it on Cancer, Bring the suffering on and we will show you what God is made of! Healing Eyes ministry is going to grow this year in ways never imagined, we are going to IMPACT lives and heal hearts in ways God only can. I am not trying to play a Christian optimistic spin on all this but truly I am just in awe of what God can do when I pray for him to EXPAND my territory. How he chose to do that is a bit alarming but HEY who am I to question his methods. Pain really is the most POWERFUL tool to wake people up and see through Healing Eyes! Stop judging each other, stop living up to certain criteria of others, but LIVE…TRULY LIVE FOR TODAY and take each PAIN filled breathe to step out on faith and watch God work in your life today.

We need you to help our kids in eastern Uganda and We need you to understand the vision before us. It’s not through just one that we will move mountains…it takes each of us one-by-one saying Yes and joining us today. We invite you to reach out to  us and learn more in person or over the phone or even email.

Because I am just DYING to share the good news and overwhelming story happening in my life today and the need of orphans and widows dying for you to know them.

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fragile steps forward. Don’t drop me

I have neglected blogging lately. It’s been a whirlwind of emotions and busyness for me. My Africa plans are changing last minute on where we will stay. The car rental is changing. It’s all madness! But that is what happens with Africa. Go with limited plans to enjoy God’s plan. 

We leave in Monday night and it seems too soon. Much prayer is needed on this trip. The first mission trip solely as Healing Eyes! My own ministry ! Well God’s ministry and I’m just following but still it’s scary. 

The concert pulled in the funds needed to further the hopes of project 616 and the people in Africa. Much rides on relationship building and I pray I won’t screw it up. 

This is truly where the weak follow the strong and the unknown is quite apparent. Take the leap…right off that waterfall. 

Isaiah 54…sing barren woman you who bore no children. For more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband. 

Let me know screw this up….

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The island is my home for two weeks again. Strange being back here after Africa and experiencing so much while there. This land feels calm and peaceful compared to Africa. I remember when I first came to the island I was scared and unsure of the differences I saw. It seemed dangerous and forboding. Now it seems tame compared to Africa 

There always is perspective on places once your eyes are opened to more. 

The Whoa benefit concert is still on for September 19th in Michigan and I have awesome volunteers working on it as I sit here. Wondering why I’m here and what God will do this time. Already he introduced me to a couple who has a sailboat at the airport. Already he has provided a car for my travels. And above all that he has blessed me kids that missed me and beg to see me. How insane is that! A few years ago I would never spend a day with kids! I was in the misery of fighting cancer with my husband and watching him starve each day. His bones whitheree away and his soul threatened to be swallowed by the pit. Those last months were hard on us both and many regrets were made but even now God loves and has meaning for me. So crazy to think I couldn’t stand God most of my adult life and now I am living solely on Him. 

I do hope others will start to take up there cross with me and see the pain we hide ourselves from. So much need out there and so little time. Lives are short! And so much flavor to be added to those we meet each day through our own testimonies and search for meaning in our strife. 

Join me. Join Us at Healing Eyes to do what we need to do. Stand up and Do something for the powerless and distraught. There voices are muffled by the evil around us that we can’t see. Lulled into our comforts of life and blinded by our own pain. Oh what beauty can be lived if we each take a moment to see the person next to us and ask..How are you really?  

If your in Michigan sept 19 at 6pm come hear music and hear more of our passion. Bid on some awesome items for auction and make a difference in the Flavor of the world around us. 

Healingeyes.org/whoa

Join our Facebook page too and stay up to date on events and auctions. Post your Whoa Selfie today too. 

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For now I wait..and enjoy time with the kids

On an island in the sun where I once lived and wandered around. Visiting for two weeks is a very odd feeling. I’ve been here 3 days and each day I’ve taken kids out for mini adventures. For someone not used to having kids all the time I am tired but content. I’m already thinking of what it will be like when I leave and head to Africa. I’m a bit scared to be honest. 

I haven’t been thinking as much about the $1000 to go yet for fundraising. I have a month to find it. Anything is possible at this point. 

I hope to write more and share photos of the kids but for now I am beat. 

Goodnight from the island 

  

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Laid to rest

To die young .. Oh what a cruel twist on expectations. I expected to grow old with Andy and to have security of love forever. It is crueler fate to leave behind a torn lover at a young age… Split between a life so vivid and a life full of lonely memories of love long gone.
Today I fulfilled my promise to Andy. 6 months after he died and was cremated I released his ashes where we first met and fell in love.

Today I immersed my heart in revisiting a town miles away where every memory stabbed me from within. Oh Andy. My Andy. I searched on the high mountain and down low by the water for you today. I looked for glimpses of your smile and laugh. I looked for your eyes shining back on me. Instead I only heard your voice saying .. “Sarah, I love you. I always will. Let me go – hold on to my heart no more and let the grief go. I want you to smile and laugh again without guilt. I forgive you. I am sorry I had to leave you. I forgive you.”

My love, if only it was possible to let you go. I cling to your life. I cling to needing you with each breathe. Please don’t leave me alone in this darkness.
Your ashes are at rest at last up high on the mountain overlooking our home long gone. What a blessing the weather was today and the moment of solitude given to us while I said goodbye. As if the clouds in heaven opened up and silenced everything around me so that I could lay you to rest.

I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart. All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. I wait for you, O LORD; you will answer, O Lord my God. Psalm 38:8-9,15

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