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Save me from my enemies

“Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter – when you see the naked, to clothe him (her), and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?” “Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard, then you will call , and the Lord will answer.” Isaiah 58:7-9

It’s amazing to see ancient scripture come alive in day to day life. Maybe in my case a bit more extreme day to day life but still its amazing to see words on paper acted out in real life.

Such as the naked girl that was wandering the streets and we stopped to ‘clothe’ her and to give her shelter. Yes the shelter is in a poorly managed mental health ward in a government hospital but she is getting some attention and safety. She now has some medicine, which I am assuming is to treat bi-polar and/or early Parkinson disease. But I only am basing that on googling the drugs because I haven’t seen any real diagnosis because that would be logical. What also is logical is to not have to go to the pharmacy in town myself to buy the medicine to then deliver to the hospital to have a person I am paying to take care of my patient. But what do I know?

I clothed a naked girl and I am feeding the poor. So then why is the light not breaking like the dawn yet? And where is this healing the bible talks of? So I am calling Lord for your answer now and await patiently for you to intercede on my behalf as the enemies encircle my every movement and plot to take me down.

Yes I have some evil people lurking in the darkness that are plotting evil lies against me in order to try and thwart this entire project for orphans. Their first attack is to counter my first step towards buying land. They are doing there best to stop me and I shed some tears today BUT I am not giving up and I really do think some good will come out of all this and some pretty amazing land will be produced. I am asking God for you to be my ‘rear guard’ and answer ‘my call’. I’m sure you will…could it be tomorrow…please?

In the meantime perhaps some encouragement and a break in the darkness would be also appreciated.

Everything isn’t all gloom and doom here, I have been taking care of many children with their wounds and teaching them some basic first aid by each day changing there bandages and applying iodine and some ointment to seal the wounds. As much as I dread hospitals and waiting and waiting and waiting I do kind of like going to my kids straw huts and pulling up a stool and taking out my basket of bandages to make them smile and so some modern magic on there wounds. I even have a nurse at a clinic that gave me some freebies and hopefully can get some deworming tablets for me. I am by NO means setting up a clinic but if I have a kid who needs me I just can’t say no. The bible really says you should look after orphans and widows even if everyone around them is plotting to stop me. Which I still do not understand because me helping can help them and yet they still don’t get it in this village. So I also ask you God to please introduce some logic here too.

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Rafiki Yangu forever and ever

When we first met I saw a leader in the making…a young lady that possessed a strength only born out of suffering. She shouldn’t be pitied or even looked at as a victim. NO! She is someone who at first introduction would make you think…what was her life like that made her have such strong and imposing eyes. As we got closer with each visit I saw her eyes soften and the beautiful woman emerged from within. How can two different personalities connect so easily? Maybe it was that similar attribute of pain buried within that sparked a connection. As we talked more through ‘passing notes’ to each other I learned more about her life and she in turn gave me so many inspiring words. She is still in high school but I could have sworn she was a girl full of years no child should ever have to earn.

“Look at the birds of the air. They sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not more value than they. Believe in God he will help you in ways of difficulties that you are passing through he will make it be lite.”

“If you have desired to follow Jesus NO Turning back anymore… You were chosen to be my friend forever and ever even if it is in difficulties or in every thing that God made for us.”

If I can somehow share stories of hope and love as I journey through life and also maintain a living by going where God sends me than I will. To make friends like my sweet Josephine forever and ever because God put her in that location at that time to catch my eye to encourage me more than I ever encouraged her than so be it. Can’t life be that simple? To hear the birds in the trees and see the children in pain and know I am in that place I should be…just in time to share words with someone in need. A young lady who is living alone on a mountain, far away, going to school each day to someday be a policewoman. She has no family capable to show her the love and attention kids her age crave but what does she do…SHE LIVES!

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Ukulele

When I first learned the Ukulele I thought I would never be able to sing while strumming. But now after hours and days of practice I’ve done it! Little by little I got the hang of it.

I wonder if that is what life can be like. Diligence and persistence to learn new things and to stretch oneself beyond what was thought possible.

Maybe that’s why God picked me…put me in these circumstances…knew my stubbornness…and is gonna take advantage of the gift he gave me.

Today I had my first Jeep lesson with Tan Tan tours on the island. Let me say this, being a driver is not just driving a jeep! Holy crap its gonna be like Jeep boot camp. I need to check all the fluids each time and look for broken parts on the Jeep before going out. (The radiator overheated going up the Tide Pools road and I got stuck, I guess no one makes it the first time. I later found out he set me up and he knew the radiator was gonna overheat and he wanted me to experience it)

I will have to learn facts about St. Croix to share with riders and also get them to love me by the end of the ride. So my people skills will be rigorously improved, maneuvering a Jeep over rough terrain, and then mechanic skills will be improved. If my goal is to someday be working in a third world country for neglected kids I think working at Tan Tan will help build my patience and diligence required. From drunk to high maintenance vacationers I should learn to work with a lot of personalities from this training opportunity and flush out that whole introvert personality. When I agreed to God rebuilding my life I never thought he would be so creative in his methods.

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Perseverance

In an effort to learn the island and try and fit in as best as I can with islanders I had my friend Stephan take me around on the West side. Being that he is ex-marine and has a reputation on the street it was a fun day. I saw some other sides of my friend that you never would guess existed if you just looked at his appearance. One being that he loves espresso and he can get one for free by flirting with the espresso maker. Let’s just say the espresso maker was not a girl and that Stephan can really blend in with any crowd. Regretfully I did not capture much of these moments with my camera since I wanted to kinda not look like a tourist. Although wearing bright pink and short shorts kinda makes me stick out next to a black dude.

I started my day not knowing what to do and also feeling very sorry for myself. Another night missing Andy and crying, I’m not sure what is up with this week but the wound seems wide open again.

When I first came to the island I met Stephan at the lighthouse and for some reason God was saying that he was to be my guide if I were to come back. I don’t know what for exactly but as I talked more with Stephan today I learned he has an interesting skill. He was trained to gather information on areas before troops were sent in. So this means he automatically will scope out an area and figure out where is the bad spots and what are safe. If somehow he can teach me how to do that, who knows what God will use that for, wherever I land after this island.

I am being trained for something. For now I am supposed to write and share my story. Figure out how to not let grief consume me and figure out how to get Sarah back.

Andy would be proud of me today. I jumped off the pier with some others encouragement. That was fun! I may stick out like a sore thumb but for some reason it doesn’t really feel all that awkward being so different here. All the others on the pier counted down for me to jump..1..2..3..Go! Oh who am I? I do not recognize this person in front of the mirror. Faintly she reminds me of college Sarah, fearless and curious.

Good news! I had my poo tested and I have no parasites! Yay! Ok yea gross…but I guess that’s needed for a health card, which I need to get tomorrow as well as my police record. Thank God I had someone with me when I went to the police station today to fill the paperwork out. Tomorrow I drive all the way back to the West side to get my report and hopefully there is not blemishes on it, haha.


 

“Pain is weakness leaving the body” –Stephan

 

Romans 5:3-5

Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character, and character, hope.

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